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I do not really know where to start when writing this, but for a long time I have been increasingly worried about my partner Colin’s health. He has never been what you would call a really well person in all of the 7 years we have been together. To begin with it was just simple aches and pains, but this has slowly got worse to the extent that he now has days where he is barely able to function at all. The problems are no doubt exacerbated by his gender identity confusion, which has been around virtually since puberty. He only really started to look at and seek help for after he met me. I was in fact about the first person he ever told about this, and it has been a very intense, and at times painful journey for both of us.
In the last 18 months he has lost nearly 2 stone in weight. Virtually every time he eats something he feels sick, and constantly suffers from intestinal cramps, and intermittent constipation and diarrhoea. The Doctor did some blood tests last year (which was no easy thing as Colin is also terrified of needles) and nothing was found. Various other tests (parasites etc) have also been done, but all of these have also come back negative. His kinesiologist suggested that he is sensitive to a variety of different foods, but that these seem to be changing on almost a daily basis. As you can imagine this makes shopping and meal times extremely difficult.
The Doctor does not seem to take any of this seriously at all, and I get the distinct impression that he regards Colin as a hypocondriac. The last Doctor he saw though (his usual one was away at the time) was a little more sympathetic and actually took the time to examine him. She suggested that the problem may be IBS, which in some way would make sense, but does not explain the constant feeling of nausea. Sometimes he wakes up in the middle of the night feeling sick, but also starts to shake uncontrollably with fear, so we are both beginning to get really fed up with this situation. It got to the point last November where he had to take a whole month off work because of the stress of it all. The only way I manage to cope is by going to work myself, but as soon as I get home it starts again. Because of this situation we are no longer able to do so called normal things like going to the cinema or for a meal, so our evenings revolve around sitting on the sofa watching TV, which is enough to make anyone even more depressed. My sister doesn’t help the situation (she suffers from schizophrenia and thinks the world revolves around her) as she keeps ringing up and offloading yet more problems on to both of us.
In addition to the Doctor he has also been to see various other practitioners, but nothing seems to help. We are both now getting to the end of our tether. But the reason I am posting this is because there are such an array of different people here, doing such different things that I felt surely someone here must have some ideas as to what we can do, because something clearly does have to be done before both of us end up thoroughly depressed.
This all seemed to start around the time that Colin first came out as a cross dresser. It is almost as though this opened a Pandora’s box of problems and I cannot help thinking that the 2 things must be linked. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
June
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Hello Colin,
My love and healing energies to you and to June, in abundance.
I have been reading your posts. The cross-dressing may not have anything to do with your illness - it may be something else that has triggered it off. You will be okay Colin, you only have to find out what the trigger was. It may be a mental situation, and not a physical one, and the more you worry about it, the worse it will get.
Meditation and relaxation to put your mind at rest.
Love,
Patsy.
xxxxx
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Hi Colin
At the risk of sounding flippant I wonder if all these skulls you surround yourself with are in themself leading to a very depressing ambience.
I don't profess to know anything about any of the therapies I read about on HP although I am open to any suggestion. The only thing that I sort of follow and I say sort of is Feng Sui. I do this because it is basic common sense. That is declutter your home and your declutter you mind. Fill you clean home with light and brightness, living plants and animals are good as are gentle curves not sharp corners.
As you are losing weight why not eat just what you fancy. I wouldn't worry if it isn't the healthiest food around but just to get your system to start to enjoy food again you can address the healthy option as you start to gain weight.
I am the product of a distructive and cruel mother but I never let it get to me. I knew if I were to survive I would have to look out for myself. Please try to take charge of yourself put the blame for your condition fairly and squarely on the perpetrators then free yourself of any guilt and start to live again.
I can understand your worries about being sick but what about small trips out in the car (if of course you have one) with June. Take bags just in case you are queasy. I am sure if you attempt and suceed little goals you will build your confidence as I am sure all your problems are related to your mental anguish. I always look for the positive within any situation and this certainly helps.
I hope you read this in the spirit it is meant. I may sound harsh compared to other contributors but I am a tough cookie who has had a hard life for the first 25 years of it but have come out smiling in the end.
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Hi June and Colin,
I have only just found this topic.
You are both being sent my love and healing thoughts.
Rumini's suggestion about Brandon Bays "The Journey" is a good one. My wife and daughter 'did' the journey and were much better for it.
My own turning point was to do a Louise L Hay "You Can Heal Your Life" course. She has written a book on this (with the same name as the course) and a Companion book so that you are able to follow the whole course on your own. She dealt with an abused childhood and the onset of cancer by her means of learning to forgive the past and learning to think positively using affirmations.
It is very easy to recommend such things as Louise's work and Brandon's Journey but putting them into action is very hard work and many tears will be shed during the programmes. Crying is a wonderful releaser of tension and is perfectly natural.
I know that these are two more considerations for you BUT I know that you both will discover the way forward and together become happy people in love with themselves and each other.
Sent, as always, with
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Thank you again for the very kind messages of support that continue to be giving, there is very sound advice here which we will definately take on board.
In retrospect maybe I was a bit harsh with Wise Owl, and I do hope Paul that you will accept my apologies. it was really not my intention to upset anyone on this forum, and I hope that no lasting damage has been done. Believe me, it is not ky intetion to make anyone feel belittled, or unwanted here, in fact quite the opposite. There is actually a lot of sense in what you said, and now I have had a chance to calm down and get things into a bit more persecptive I have to concede that sitting with the skulls as you suggest may well be worth trying. Like Colin said though, he has at the moment lost faith in all things spiritual, and it may be very difficult for him to accept this. Two days ago he got so angry with the whole thing that he put all the skulls in the cupboard and he has convinced himself that their energy is not helping. They can indeed, as Orange Blossom says trigger a healing reaction, which I myself am very much aware and have direct experience of. But in the end it has to be Colin's decision as to what he decides to do, my role is to support him and try to look after myself as best I can.
Both of us are feeling a lot better today though anyway, amd Colin was actually well enough to go to work for a few hours. Luckily thery have agreed to let him work at home for the next few weeks, which should certainly help matters. He has also decided that rather than having 3 large meals a day to try grazing as and when he feels peckish, so after I finished work today I got him loads of soups, rice, nuts and seeds etc for him to nibble on. It means that we will be eating seperately for a while, but that can't be helped, the hours I work are not exactly conducive to grazing, as I sometimes have to go for nearly 6 hours before I get a break. Surprisingly this is perfectly legal.
I had a chat with Personnel myself today anyway, and feel a lot better for having done so. They in turn will have a word with my Manager, and expalin thngs to her. It will not be a probelm if I need to take time off at short notice for hsotpital appointments (as the Doctor has asked them to let us know if there are any cancellations), so that is a relief.
With regard to the Journey which several people here have suggested, I did actuially do the weekend workshop myself whebn brandon first came to the UK, and was very impressed with it. The trouble (and I hate to use this word) with Colin is that he has a very logical mind, and having done the Journey several times now, for various other things, when someone starts to repeat the words that are usually used duering the process, he reposnds by short circuitiong the whole thing and going direct to 'source' as it were. So the process is not really working for him in the way that is should be. I have suggested that he tries the process agaibn, but can only repeat what he said to me, as to why he does not think it would work.
The key really I feel is keeping the stress levels under control. If he can manage to do this, then the physical symptoms should hopefully start to diminish, as the two are obviously linked.
Thank you agian for all your help and support though everyone, it really is appreciated.
June
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Hi Talisman / Colin,
Just another pov to add to all the others really... A different form of journey to possibly consider may be Shamanic. This will obviously depend on yours and Colins spiritual beliefs but perhaps soul retrieval could be another option (as a possible explanation for the gender issue). I wont go on about it here as there are lots of good websites to look at if this is something you want to consider.
Obviously at this stage poor Colin is wracked with multiple mental and physical issues that are very difficult to seperate. If he/you believes it may be ME (and it sounds like a possibility) then at least this waiting time can be used to investigate different treatments, both holistic and conventional if that is your wish. My only advice would be dont try everything at once. Give one treatment time to work (ie the EFT) before trying another or your body will just end up as confused as your mind. As someone else said in an earlier post, small achievable goals are also good while you are waiting for diagnosis.
If I can find any sort of silver lining to the clouds above both of you is that when you do get through this, and you will. You will both be so much stronger, individually and together. June and Colin against the world! [sm=grouphug.gif]
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Re; NAET
Hi June. As luck would have it Dominick Hussey is right on your doorstep, being in New Malden, as you are.
Andrew and I met him on the two courses we attended. He is a lovely, sensitive man and I can only recommend that you give him a try.
HUSSEY Dominick
Osteopath
The Aston Clinic - 26, Kingston road
KT3 3LS NEW MALDEN - Surrey - England
Tel : +44 0 20 8942 3148
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We also found Dominics name via one of the web links that you previously posted. In fact I used to work at the Aston Clinic myself many years ago, asit only 10 minutes from where we live. I don't remember Dominic from my time there, but there have been lots of comings and goings since then no doubt, and I didn't get to meet many of the other therapist anyway, as they all worked on different days.
Once the dust has settled a little bit from the EFT that Colin had last week though, he does plan to give him a call and try to arrange an appointment, as this certainly sounds like something that could help.
June
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Colin,
Just to mess with your head even more.. (and excuse my assumptions here)
What if all this IBS, sickness, pain and tiredness are actually part of the healing process? After all you are now in a long term, loving relationship with someone who accepts you for who and what you are. You have probably got your own home where you can shut the doors away from the world and get the privacy that you didnt have as a child. Maybe that child is now ready to heal.
The problem being that you could be dealing with this as the little boy inside. As we know, kids are all or nothing so now little Colin is ready to get rid of X number of years of pent up/built up fear,anger,frustration etc and is trying to do it all at once. No wonder you are feeling tired and sick, no physical body can cope with getting rid of that much pain all at once.
Wouldn't it be lovely if the solution was as simple as having a 'conversation' with young Colin, thanking him for the good work he has started, while explaining that you need to take over the reins now and control the healing at a rate your physical body and mind can deal with...
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I think Nitelite may have hit the nail on the head here - so many of the Journeys I have done have resulted in finding the buried emotions of childhood, if not all of them -
and they are SO SO powerful and intense - and most of the issues the adults were not even aware they had at all.
And their improvement after acknowledging and FORGIVING ( this is the key - without the forgiveness there cannot be proper healing ) is wonderful to see.
Rather than going to Source - perhaps you could use the childs version of the Journey which does not actually do this as such - it is a much better way of accessing the child within and the subconscious, as it speaks directly TO the child in their type of language. I have used this with great effect, even on myself.
Although Colin said he had already had a 'releasing ' session where he got angry and very upset, it is the forgiveness process that needs to happen now.
With love Ru xx
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Dear Colin and June,
Tears are healers of the soul... So do let them out.
Colin, you low energy, possible ME makes me think that you could definitly benefit from some Shiatsu. I know that it may seem too much to have yet another thing to try. I am happy to send you some distamt Shiatsu if you want. Unfortunatly I live too far away from you to offer a hands-on one.
Artemis
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I thought I would give everyone an update on what has been happening, as neither of us have posted for a few days. I am relieved to say that nthe immediate crisis does seem to have abated somewhat, largely I think due to the fact that boht of us have finally admitted not just to everyone else but also ourselves that we needed help. This has never been an easy thing for me in particular to have to do, as my family were all experts on sweeping things under the carpet and pretending eveyrhting was fine when it was patently clear that things were far from that. That probably has a lot to do with my sisters scizophrenia too, but that is a whole other topic.
Anyway, we are both feeling a lot better than we were, elthough the problems are far from over. The intestinal cramps and nausea still continue, but because Colin is now working from home, are a lot easier to manage. He had his first appointment with psychiatrist today (which the Doctor referred him about 9 months ago!). I am not sure whether they will be able to help though, as from what Colin told me they seem to think that he needs to deal with the physical stuff first. From the description he gave though, the psychiatrist seems to think that it may well be a particularly chronic case of IBS, (no doubt aggtravated by 20 odd years of taking anti depressants). In the last few dfays Colin has started to keep a food diary and yesterday I went out and bought big bottle of aloe vera juice. It is too early of course to tell whether this will help, but it certainly can't do any harm.
We have decided also that in order to take the financial burden off Colin a little, I will pay off the remainder of the mortgate using the money that my Mum left me when she died, as the same time I will also pay off my outstabnding car loan of £200 a month. This will mean though that most of my inheritance will be gone, so I will therefore have to go back to work full time. I did not really want to do this quite yet, but realise the necessity of it as this stage. The good news is that although therre are no full time vacancies at the moment. one of the otehr cashiers is retiring at the end of Auguist and cutting his hours back to 2 days a week, so I should be able to take over some of the shortfall. To be honest it will not make that much difference anyway, as I already wortking 30 hours a week spread over 5 days, so it will really just be a couple of extra hours a day. I intend to make use of my semi freedom while I still can though! Once I have confirmed to my boss that we are definately going ahead with this plan, then the exact hours will be worked out. We will then have to contact the solictor about getting my name oput on the house deeds. Not having to worry about the mortgage every month will no doubt make a huge difference to Colin's stress levels.
June
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Dear June and Colin,
I am so glad that you both seem to be feeling better and that your immediate future is becoming more settled.
Thank you both for sharing your troubles with us. That, in itself, was a very brave and healing thing to do.
I know that the rest of here on HP will be rooting for you in the future and will continue to send Healing to your situation.
May your recoveries to a full, healthy and happy life continue with ever increasing speed.
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Just to echo Pauls sentiments... Ditto.
Take care and the best of luck to the both of you.
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I also echo Paul's sentiments.
Take care, and the very best of luck, hope you'll keep us informed on how things go for you.
Reiki still coming for you both.
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June
Isn't it amazing how the medical profession always seem unable to make a connection between physical and emotional?
Hope things continue to improve for you and Colin.
[sm=hug.gif][sm=hug.gif]
Lesley
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Well, I am delighted to say that we are now both completely loan free, having paid off both the mortgage and my car loan. This means that I can also finally claim to be home owner, or at least I can once the solicitor has put my name on the deeds and notified the land registry of the changes. Colin continues to be very up and down health wise, although thankfully the depression now seems to be a lot more under control. He continues to keep the food diary and take his aloe vera like a good little boy, although as yet neither of us have seen any sort of pattern emerging regarding what foods could be triggering his synmptoms. After reading the Optimum Nutrition Bible last week, he has decided to see a nutrituional therapist anyway, (the appointment is on Tuesday), as they are able to carry out all sorts of non invasive tests to determine allergies, intlerances, and vitamin and mineral deficencies. The one he is seeing is also a kinesiologist, and does reflexology and flower remedies amongst other things, giving her a variety of different tools which should be able to help.
On the phone she mentioned the possibility of his being an undiagnosed coeliac (we are both intolerant to wheat anyway,. but this would obviously be a lot more serious). It seems that in mild cases, depression can be a by product of certain deficiencies, as the food is not being properly assimiliated. It could well turn out than that he has been tkaing prozac all these years when there was no real need for it. Will continue to let you all know how things progress anyway.
June
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Thanks for the update, June.
It is so nice to be debt-free, isn't it??
I am still wishing you and Colin a rapid ending of your current difficulties.
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Well, its me again. I thought it time to let all you nice people know what has been happening with me lately.
Yesterday, I had some kinesiology from someone in Surbiton. It was a two hour appointment (always for the first one, 1 hour after that) to see what may be wrong with me. Some of my meridians were out of alignment and particularly those that control speaking one's truth and assimilation of nutriants from the food I take in.
I still have the bubbly stomach and intestines (sometimes very painful ones) and the fear is still around. It seems it all happens in a circle. The hunger feeling sets of the fear and that sets of the intestinal cramps and that sets of more fear of what might happen. I need to break that circle somehow.
The therapist balanced my meridians and hopefully they will start to balance the rest of me. I still feel really awful most of the time and sleep is fitful and I don't wake refreshed.
I have another appointment at the end of the month with another therapist and I hope she wil help me to bring balance to my gender. Caren (my other persona) is much more distant now and hardly surfaces. I don't really know why this is. Maybe the pain of just living is too much to bear at the moment to give her a look in.
Now that June has paid off the other half of the mortgage we are both debt free. Very unusual for a 51 year old to have no mortgage to pay. It has been a load of both our minds to have this. With my illness it gives June more security something which has been on her mind since this all started.
Working at home gives me a chance to manage the symptoms much more easily and I have have put on a few pounds. I only hope its good pounds and not rubbish pounds. I will probably have to go back to work in a couple of weeks as my employers will only trust me so far even though I have great integrity and will do all I am asked to do whilst at home. Still, that's their fear to deal with.
Thanks for listening. Keep you posted.
Colin
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Dear Colin, Thank you for the update.
I am so glad that you are 'finding' out who You Really Are and feeling more 'yourself'.
I agree, it so wonderful to be mortgage free and not beholden to the money lenders and their usurious habits.
You and June will continue to be in my healing thoughts.
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Hello Colin,
Than you for the update on your health. I am so pleased that you have managed to find a therapist who can help you - these emotional upsets can really invade every aspect of our lives, and they are hell to live with once they get going. Hopefully the therapeutic sessions will help you to see things more clearly.
Good luck with returning to work as well. A balance of normality can only bring everything else into balance, dear Colin.
Love and light,
Patsy.
😀
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*huge hug* for you both, the undiagnosed coeliac may well tie in with the symptoms and you are both aware how poorly and depressed even an intolerance can make you when it's not controlled properly.
Keep going with the kine, any weight on is good weight, sometimes just a little goes a long way indeed, keep going with it and I do hope you are both feeling much much brighter soon.
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HIya
Just wanted to say from a coeliac point of few, if you were an undiagnosed coeliac and eating gluten then you would not be able to put on weight so dont worry about that for now.....there is now a very simple blood test for coeliacs and although these sometimes used to give a false negative they now also have a way of testing that doesnt. If you have any questions regarding coeliac just pm me.
T
x
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Well, what a day. I thought I would keep you all up to date with what has been happening. Thursday I had one big relapse and had to go to the doctor's only to be told he would write yet another letter to the hospital and try and bring the appointment forward. Fine thing but when your in as much pain as I'm in it does no good to hear that you still have to wait God knows how many months.
June has now got new hours at her work but it means she will not get home before 7pm most nights. This has left me with most of the housework and cooking when I feel sick everytime I eat or see food. We can't win.
Today (saturday) when June left the house to go to work I was in a real state and ended up putting the boot in to our DVD and video and the curtains upstairs. My toes on my right foot are now a colourful purple and hurt like hell.
When June got to work she felt she had to ring me. Good that she diid, she came home straight away and found me in tears standing over the damage. She was very good about it. We both had a good cry together. The pressure on her is very high now particularly since her sister is still very abusive and doesn't even ask how we are - she is always in her own little world and no one else exists or has no problems to deal with. She even refuses to believe we told her about my illness. Strange really since it has been around for over 18 months now. We are thinking about barring her phone number or changing ours so she cannot ring any more.
When June finally got to work again, she fell into tears again but was still asked to do her job. Thanks Sainsbury's. Even then no one asked how she was feeling. Is 6 weeks holiday really worth that treatment. Not very caring are they.
I finally sat down today about 3pm after a lot more crying and purging of Caren's clothes - she has disappeared - I wonder why? These situations that me and June are faced with are very difficult to deal with. I sat down and tried to speak with my inner child. I think it is my inner child who is causing all my illnesses at the moment. It has taken me all this time, 30 years in fact, to actually sit down and accept I have an inner child and that it is he who is screaming at me to listen. Having been on antidepressents for over 20 years has stiffled the inner child and stopped me from listening to all the hurt the poor boy has been going through. All the bullies at school and work. No wonder he hurts like hell. I have been treating him exactly the same way others have treated me. NOT LISTENING TO WHAT HE HAS TO SAY - ignoring, discarding, not worthly. If only I had seen this earlier things might have been different.
Also I have to own everything. I have to accept I made a choice to experience all these emotions and feelings and illnesses. I made that choice. I must accept the anger I feel, the sadness, the frustration. But also the love, the happiness, the tenderness, the communciation with others, the creativity. All things that are nice as well as all things that are bad.
I have made a pact with my inner child that I will look after him now providing he stops making me ill. I cannot look after him if I am continually distracted by illness. I cannot look after myself let alone anyone else. The draining of my energy is really bad sometimes and this stops me in my tracks. How can I possibly listen to him whilst I am in such distress myself.
June is being a wonderful creature. She is there for me even though it is very distressful for her every day seeing me wither away inch by inch. I really don't know where we will end up but I hope its together.
I think that is enough for now. Sleep is what I need. A silent and painless intestine is also what I need.
Thanks for listening.
Colin.
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Blessings to you both[sm=hug.gif]
Jx
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Still sending you healing, Colin & June.
It is very hard to be positive all the time and relapses are to be expected BUT they do get fewer and fewer and more widely spaced apart.
I wish you and your inner child all the love in the world and hope that those who are, or have been, a 'pain in the guts' to you are soon exposed and forgiven and let go. It is also very hard to forgive those who either have hurt you or you believe have hurt you in the past - particularly yourself - but it can be done and the experiences remembered as experiences and not hurts to you.
Please keep persevering and try not to worry.
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Dear June and Colin,
Still thinking of you both and sending light and love to you.
Love,
Patsy.
xxxx
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Well, just as I thought things couldn't get any stranger, it seems that they have.... I started my new hours at work on Monday, and sadly it seems that all all my worst fears have been realised. When I asked for full time hours I was told that it would not be a problem, as one cashier was due for retirement and another had just handed in their notice. I therefore believed that I would be given a choice of new hours. How wrong I was. I have ended up worse off than I was before. At least when I was part time I got home early enough to enjoy my time off, and was able to spend time with Colin, doing 'normal' things when he was well enough. With the new hours though, the earliest I get home is 7pm. It takes me at least an hour to eat and unwind after I get in, meaning that almost all social things are completely ruled out.
I have asked my boss if there is any chance of getting better hours, that enable me to start and finish work earlier, but have been told that they do not need people at these times. In desperation I then asked the Personnel Department to speak to her on my behalf, but have been told that the needs of the business must come first. In this instance though I really feel that the needs of the staff should take precedence, bearing in mind the situation we are both in. I could maybe just about cope with these hours, if Colin was well enough to help me out with the cooking, or if I could eat in the staff canteen. Due to my food intolerances though, this is impossible, so it means that today, which should have been a day of rest was spent cooking lots of things to go in the freezer instead.
Maybe I am over reacting to this situation and getting a little emotional, but bearing in mind everything that has happened, and the way they treated me on Saturday, insisiting that I served customers, even though I had been in tears, and then nobody bothering to ask how I felt for the rest of the afternoon, I am just about fed up with the way this company has been treating me. I have asked personnel to contact some other stores in my area and see what they can come up with that may suit me better, as I have just about had enough of the Managers where I am. Getting home at 7pm every night, with no time to do anything else but work, cook, eat and sleep is not what I want my life to be about.
June
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Dear June,
You do seem to be going through a difficult patch at the moment.
I feel sure that you will find a store that will require your services at the hours you want and that in a few months you will look back at this time and laugh.
My thoughts are still with you and Colin.
As always,
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Dear Paul
You have no idea of how prophetic your words are, although I must not count my chickens too prematurely. Despite having spoken to Personnel re other stores, which they assured me they had contacted, and had no suitable jobs, this morning I had a strange feeling, so decided to ring them for myself. Am I glsd that I did, as it seems that one store, which is only a mile and half from home has something which sounds ideal. This is a job in their cash office working Monday to Friday, 7am to 4pm. No more weekends or late nights then, and home by 4.30 pm every day! Alhtough it is a little earlier start than I would have really liked, in this instance I really don't care. The money is bound to be much better than what I get as a cashier as well.
They are interviewing next week anyway, so this morning I rang my own Personnel Dept (yet again, they must be getting fed up with me!) and asked them to send across my details and apply for a transfer. Hopefully there may be some news by the time I get to work just before midday. I do hope it is good news.
June
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The best of luck for the interview, June.
I've also replied under you Sharing your news topic.
I'll send Reiki to your interview.