Can someone help before we both go mad!

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Hi June and Colin,

Oh my you are both going through it at the moment aren't you?. I strongly believe that the two things are linked too as nothing is showing up on his blood tests. I know this will probably sound I'm being biased but have you tried Reiki?. As it works on mental/physical/spirtual/emotional levels then I'm sure it would help with Colin's symptoms and help with the cause.

Some of the symptoms you described could be put down to how he feels about himself and what he supressed for a very long time. Once the emotional level starts to heal then the physical will follow.

I do hope you get some help soon, do you know of a Reiki healer you could trust to help him?. Let us know how you get on,

Love and light

reikiangel

xxx

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I don't think either of you are going mad. It it does all makes sense.

Some of my history of problems due to multiple food sensitivities is on the Arthritis Forum here -
And there's various other bits splashed around on other Forums i.e. Allergies. [&o]

In short you, when you have various symptoms, seen all the specialists & they're unable to find anything wrong, then yes you do question, doubt yourself. And wonder if you're going mad. [sm=banghead.gif]

It must also be difficult if it's your partner, cos you've probably had you doubts too and which can be damaging to the relationship if they sense that you doubt them. [&:]

With multiple sensitivities, intolerances & allergies some of them can change from day to day and you literally don't know if your coming or going on some days. Some reactions are instant & others delayed, so they can be extremely difficult to pin down. 🙁

One of the feelings that I used to get was that my lower half felt numb & separate from the upper, so I'm not totally surprised about the cross-dressing thing. [8D]

I gather his applied kinesiologist (AK) is struggling to actually deal with these sensitivities. I can only say what I've said elsewhere - that it was NAET allergy treatment that sorted me out & I've tried most things. Even got 4 certificates in AK & a degree in osteopathy en route to my solution.

I kept myself going by;-

1) Learning to meditate with BMS - - when I was 21. Not normal behaviour for someone of that age, at least not then anyway. Meditating twice a day kept me together all those years and it's a way of life now. Even became a teacher & someone put me forward as a healer, which is why after 10 years of working in engineering I decided to jack it all in and study osteopathy. Healing really wasn't very acceptable 17 years ago & you certainly couldn't make a living at it, unless you had a few fanous clients I guess or were in the media. 😀

2) By avoiding a whole range of foods ever since & upto about 18 months ago.

Which is when I came across NAET. It's a treatment process & not usually a quick fix though and although I pretty much eat what I like nowadays I do occasionally still get caught out. But that's my own fault for not making time to get treated myself, as I know there are still a few sensitivities that need eliminating.

I knew within the first couple of treatments that NAET was going to sort me out and it just seemed to make so much sense. 🙂

There's a database of UK NAET practitioners - here -

If there isn't one in your area it may be worth getting a VEGA type allergy test from a recommended tester locally to verify the kinesiologist's daignosis.

If the results support this, then it may be worth travelling to your nearest NAET practitioner.

Good Luck - And. 😉

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In answer to ReikiAngel's suggestion - by all means try Reiki or other form of healing, but I found that it just made me more 'spaced' out & even less grounded than I was already. At the very least the feet should be firmly planted on the floor for any form of healing with stuff like this. 😉

I felt a lot better for actually doing healing and things that got me grounded, else I was off in my own dettatched world to the cost of my physical health & what others may regard as sanity. 😀

And.

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Hello June,

Sorry to hear about your difficulties.
I would suggest to see a Traditinal Chinese Medicineand herbalist and/or a Shiatsu practitionner (no needles used!). Finding a GOOD psychotherapist/councellor may also help Collin with his identity issue.

Love,
Artemis

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Thanks everyone for your very practical suggesitons. I am off to work in a minute so don't have time for a long post, but will try and reply to all the PM's after I get home. Firstly though both Colin and I are Reiki Masters, so he does regularly treat himself. I know this isn't quite the same as treatment from someone else, but he does also get spiriutual healing as often as possible from friends at the church we both go. With regard to the counselling, yes he has also been down that route, and it did seem to help a lot, but there is obviously a lot more to do. His Doctor has in fact refferred him to have some more so hopefully that should also help.

As for the food sensitivies and NAET which I think Anahata mentioned, I will have to get him to have a look at the site, when he himself is home from work and see what we think. Someone did also suggest that EFT may be worth investigating, and yesterday we managed to find a practitioner who is also a homepath and lives not that far from us, so that may also be worth ivestigating. Thanks again for all yhour support though, I knew you wouldn't let us down.

June

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Hi June

So sorry to hear of Colins ill health. I of course wouldn't dream of trying to diagnose but can give you some insight/advice from an IBS sufferer.

Did Colin take a course of antibiotics or suffer from a stomach bug just before the start of his problems? My IBS was started by antibiotics and the pain was so bad I ended up in hospital with suspected appendicitis. It was only after numerous tests that they diagnosed IBS. I would always recommend taking acidophilis after antbiotics

Try keeping a food diary to see if anything is making it worse. I have learned to avoid too many nuts, too much coffee, bran and fruit juice. In my experience though food just makes it WORSE it's stress that causes a flare up. Unfortunately, you cannot cut stress from your life, you can only change how you deal with it!

BB

Lyssa

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He is seeing the EFT/homepath practitioner later on tonight. so we shall see what happens there. As for anti biotics, if anything I think it is 20 odd years of anti depressanrs that caused the digestive problems, as whenever he has reflexology the liver seems to be tender, and his kinesiologist has also noticed problems in that area. The food diary though is an excellent idea, and one that I myself have suggested to him. So I went out and bought him one, which he started yesterday. The results of that may be interesting, but if as everyone says the intolerances are changing on a dialy basis it may not prove much at all. Wait and see I suppose. I myself am feeling a lot better this week though anyway, mainly because of your guys here, but also because I realise there is really no point in getting miserable and upset about things. It doesn't really help either of us, least of all Colin, as it just makes him guilty about affecting everyone else, and in his own words 'not giving me not I need'. In reality though, he is the only man for me, beause of his caring, sensitive and gentle nature, and I would rather be with him with or without his health problems than a beer swilling, football fan any day of the week.

June

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I am Colin, June's partner.

I thought it time I posted a reply to all to give thanks for your help. The EFT was a resounding failure. I came away very unbalanced and ungrounded and cried most of the night. I feel worse now than before I had the treatment. I don't know if anything has shifted, only time will tell.

I still feel sick when I don't eat and sick when I do. My weight has gone down to 10st 11lbs now and both June and I are very worried about this. I get stomach pains and intestinal cramps most of the time. Sometimes it feels like a rolercoaster ride going on in my solar plexus and sacral areas.

The stress is getting to both of us. The fear is something I have not felt before. The fear I think is about not wanting to get prodded and poked by the doctors as I have a fear of vomiting and as fear of needles. I used to be able to watch Casualty without much problem but over the last 18 months have not watched it because it causes too much fear.

I cannot go out any more because of the fear of being sick. And sometimes cannot manage work because my energy levels are almost non existent. I feel as though I have run 20 marathons one after the other. Sometimes I will have some energy and feel just about ok and 10 minutes later feel as though I could just fall asleep and give up life.

I think the symptoms are pointing to ME. But in order to get a proper diagnosis, I will have to subject myself to the doctors. This I can't stand. I have been on anti-depressents since 1980 and I feel this has done me no good at all. In fact probably caused my organs to begin to fail. This is probably why I feel so sick all the time.

I do feel as though life is no longer enjoyable and would like to fall asleep and not wake up as the physical and emotional pain is just too much to bear anymore. The gender confusion seems to be taking a step back as the other stuff takes over. Chances to dress as Caren are now only about once every two weeks and even then, the pain does not go away. The pressures of work and responsibility are too much now. I cannot concentrate as I have brain fog, cannot think to do my work to earn a living.

I have had various treatments from complimentary practitioners - kinesiology, EFT, reflexology, homeopaths, readings from psychics. None of these have given me any respite from the pain. I don't really know where to go now.

I am really so sad at the moment. June is very supportive but she is getting to end of her tether.

I will end now before this post gets to become a tome. Thanks for your help and advise.

Colin.

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Dear Colin

I am sorry I don't know what to suggest but felt the need to send you a hug [sm=hug.gif]and with your permission include you in my Reiki healing list. I know you are a Reiki Master but I always think you can never have enough healing. I do hope you find a solution to your health problems and are feeling better very soon. [sm=hug.gif]

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Dear Colin,

What a time you're having. I really feel for you. I'm no expert, but ME does sound like a possibility. Have you thought about trying immune system boosters? There are a few around. I tried Astragalus recently and would say it has helped, although not instantly. I got the dried root in a Herbal shop - about a teaspoon in a small pan of water, bring to boil and then simmer for 15mins, strain and have some two or three times daily. I made up between half and a full mug daily depending on when I remembered to switch off the ring before it boiled dry! and just had that. I also took echinacea and various vits and now feel a lot better, more energy etc.

Like you I was on antidepressants for about 9 years. I didn't really start to feel better till I came off them. If you decide to come off them do so GRADUALLY. I took a few courses of St John's Wort after coming off ad's when I went 'down', it helped. I've recently discovered that fish oils are very good for mood. I found a book called The Mood Cure very helpful - worth reading.

If you have the energy a trip to your local library could yield some very helpful reading. I found lots of helpful books in mine and it's only a small one. Some of them have really helped me on my journey.

I don't know where you stay, but if you are within reach of one of Jan de Vries's clinics, it could well be worth making an appointment to see him as he practises a very wide range of complementary therapies.

Another thought, perhaps Flower Remedies are worth trying? There is an online Personal Remedy Chooser at which you may find helpful.

Sending both of you Reiki and all best wishes,

Muriel

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Dear Poppet and Muriel

Thanks for your help here. It is really appreciated. I have just come back from the doctor's and he has given me some beta blockers to try and help with the panic attacks. If I can break the cycle somewhere, the cycle that feeds on itself, I can probably just about survive. On my insistence he is sending me to a specialist in the hospital near where we live to see if I have got ME. At least that ball has started rolling even though it will be 3 very long months before I get an appointment. Well, that is the NHS for you.

I will try the St John's wort now. I have tried it before but you mustn't be on this while you are on any form of anti-depressant. I stopped all forms of anti-depressant last August so have been off these for nearly a year.

Jan de Vries's clinics are all too far. However the London one might be ok if I can get there. Might be difficult though baring in mind my health at the moment.

Colin

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Hi Colin

I am really sorry to hear about your health, I suffered stress for about 7 months and was on antidepressants for a while.

I also have IBS from taking antibiotices when I was young (I am allergic to penicillan so everything was double doses) and like you get nausia and sick feeling quite a lot of the time when having an episode. Best thing I have found is Aloe vera (either tablets or liquid) as it helps to calm down the gut lining!

I really hope everything starts moving on the up soon and will add you to my reiki list!

With love

Maria

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Hi June and Colin,

Whatever you both chose as your life plan for soul progression, you certainly chose to do it the hard way, didn't you?

Have you heard of Roger Woolger's work? His therapy is called Integral Regression Therapy; I had one short session recently and was impressed by it. The aim is to remove physical and mental traumas you are carrying from previous lives, it involves visualisation, energy work, drama therapy, and the use of different sets of tarot, angel, psi cards to produce your 'identifiers' as a starting point for the work. So, seems like a jack-of-all-trades thing, but I found it useful and I tend to go on the 'if it works don't knock it' basis. You can read an article about this chap at
He also has a website somewhere, can't find the link just now, which lists practitioners.

I would also echo the previous suggestion that flower essences should not be overlooked. I find them the most powerful in sensitive souls, as you both undoubtedly are, so I would suggest them to both of you - you need to have a healing hand too, June, to stay strong for Colin.

Sending you both love and healing light

edited all the typo's!

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Hi Colin
I am truly sorry for your situation. The emotional will always effect the physical you cannot dettach them I am afraid. The emotional turmiol that you faced with your gender indentity is part of the problem, but as some have said long term drugs will give a lot of inbalance which is possibly the IBS. You really need to talk about how you feel to a good counsellor, one who deals with gender issues. This may not cure you but will help resolve old issues which you may have buried and created some of the physical symptoms initially. The confusion about not being you but being two within one body may well be conflict of male and female attitudes an possibly will be waring against each other trying to control each other, so to speak. Ask your self one question. Do you feel emotional when thinking about your past and does love emotions make you cry. Talk Colin please and let it out. If you need to e-mail or talk to me then we can possibly do sessions via yahoo messenger.
Take Care
Ian

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Hi June and Colin,

I am so glad that I spotted this post, and firstly I am so sorry that you have had such a lot of suffering.

My information for you is regarding a process called 'The Journey ' devised by a lady called Brandon Bays, who healed herself of a massive tumour in 6 weeks.
She realised that at the root of all physical ailments there are buried emotions and memories, and using a technique to access these and then forgive the people involved, she literally dissolved her growth.

This approach to health is at the cutting edge of science and health - there is now scientific ( oh how we all lust after ''proof' !) evidence to show that emotions are literally held in the body and block communication between cells.
A book called 'Molecules of emotion ' by Dr. Candace Pert describes this new evidence very clearly.

With a gender identity problem there will be layer on layer of emotion inside you, as you struggled for so many years to find peace. I believe it is these buried emotions that are causing your physical discomfort, as your body displays the myriad of difficult feelings that are held within.

I struggled with many emotional problems for 25 years, until I discovered that the root cause of them was rejection at birth. My experience of the Journey healed those feelings ( I was able to access feelings of hatred and bewilderment towards my mother in my session ) and having learnt this simple process myself am able to continue my healing process when I become aware of emotions needing to be released - this is easily recognisable when you have done the Journey.
I was a comfort eater for all of those 25 years - this has simply vanished.
My anger has gone - I am calmer and so very much happier.

I cannot recommend this process enough - I had searched for so long, with little success, and feel that this is the answer for so many people, if not everyone. We are all told as children ''don't be sad, don't be afraid, don't cry, don't be angry, don't don't DON'T ! Is it any wonder that we all carry these energies around inside us - we were taught to deny our natural feelings and suppression of anything blocks FLOW. It is flow that sustains LIFE .......... wether it is the flow of water, of blood, of air, of thoughts, and emotions NEED TO FLOW.
This premise is so simple, it has a beauty that is breathtaking and I wonder why we have been blind to it for so so long.

How many people are crying inside, holding in the tears of years and years past, pretending they are happy and wondering why they feel as if they are slowly choking, addicted, afraid of letting go becuase they are aware of the damburst of feelings within.

The Journey is not frightening - the subconscious has its own intelligence, and the emotions surface gently, and with grace, and the wonderful healing experience is like nothing else I have ever felt.

The book is called The Journey, by Brandon Bays, and she has written one for children too. I use this with my own children, with wonderful results.
Relationships in my family have healed, quite unbelieveably.

I hope this helps - please do look into this as soon as you can .

With love Ru xxxxx

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Dear All

Perhaps the EFT has had some effect after all. Having spent most of thursday and some of friday in tears, I have had some Ah! Ah! moments. Today, all I could manage was paciing round and round the living room whilst holding a hot water bottle to my stomach. June was in tears this morning and almost couldn't go to work but eventually managed to go. She generally has difficulty showing tears because of her upbringing so if she cries then she really is in a state. Her tears started me off again. What a right pair we are.

I felt really angry over something but didn't really know what. I was angry at the crystal skulls and God for not helping me through this trauma and not helping me to see a way out. I have never been very good at communicating with the spirit realms so am doubly p***ed off. I really told them to go where the sun don't shine! Gradually, I felt a release of the anger when I remembered that, as a child, my bedroom door didn't exist. Let me explain.

When I first got my own room I couldn't understand why my parents didn't knock on the door first and then wait to come in. They just barged in. The same happened when I was in the bath. I effectively had no privacy, no identity as an individual. However, I was very confused as to why they knocked on my sisters door. Why was she treated differently to me? Even now, when I have a shower at mum's I still feel as though she is going to come in when I hear her moving about outside the door.

This treatment by my parents has left me with lots of anger that I could not express as I was taught it was wrong to express it. I had no identity, no privacy, and no self esteem. This treatment continued into my adult life when bullies at both my school and work treated me like something that has come out of the gutter. No wonder I am all screwed up. People have taught me that I am no good, so I believed it. This programming is so insidious that is it very difficult to get rid of.

The question is - how can I dislodge all this crap programming and be who I really am? I suspect that my crossdressing is just a front for trying to be acceptable to everyone. Women do have a lot more freedom in expressing themselves, both emotionally and in dress. My nature is more like a woman's anyway so I am very frustrated that I cannot express my self more in the way I WANT TOO.

Well, I think that is enough for now. Thanks for listening. Any suggestions you may have would be gratefully received.

Colin.

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Hi Colin,

From what most people are saying, it sounds like your problems may stem from a combination of emotional and physical states (eg food intolerances). While I believe that some physical difficulties can be caused by emotions, I think that sometimes there is just physical stuff that goes wrong too, so while it's good to work on the emotional stuff, I think you also have to work on the physical stuff at the same time.

I have tried a zillion therapies, herbs, supplements etc - including seeing Jan de Vries himself as you mentioned before. But the best treatment by far has been NAET. I think I am almost "fixed", I am definitely getting there. For all my food/digestive/pain/ME type problems - it has cleared them.

Good luck,

Lucy

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Lucy

Thanks for the post. It seems NAET keeps coming into to my frame of reference quite a lot in the last few days, and just by conincidence (that universal trick called synchronicity) there is a practitioner just up the road from where we live. I will try and find out some more info about this NAET and make an appointment.

Thanks

Colin

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Hi Colin,

Hope that you will also consider the Journey work I described in my post above ............. this works by creating positive emotions and linking them through forgiveness work to the people who 'caused' the issues that you struggle with - changing the emotional patterns inside you, which then filters through to the physical, hence the healing effects that it brings about in many people.

Love Ru xx

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Glad to hear the EFT is helping and that you're considering NAET. 😉

Lucy has summed up, very succinctly & in a lot fewer words than I could manage. [8D]

As a much recovered hypersensitive myself, that can relate with a lot of what you describe. The thing that actually got to my root issues was NAET. 🙂

I certainly wouldn't pin your hopes on the orthodox approach to ME, as it tends to come in two forms.

* Psychological - This flies in the face of the evidence, that in spite of a Government Working Group report is still being used by some, 'so called' specialists. Check the thread atop of Fatigue & Pain Disorders sub Forum under Ailments. [sm=banghead.gif]

* Exercise - the research supporting the exercise regime has also been discreditted. See above link & also check the Allergies sub forum. [sm=banghead.gif]

Am usually to be found skulking among Ailments, if I can be of any help - Good Luck - And. 😀

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Hi Colin

I happened upon this website earlier, and wonder if it might be of interest:

The quote below is from the list of articles on the site:

When Anima Meets Animus
This article explores the Jungian concepts of the anima and animus, the transsexual aspects of each of us, especially as they occur during Venus retrograde planets. If you ever hope to understand yourself in relating or the mirroring potential of your significant partners, this is the article for you.

Best wishes,

Holistic

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Hi collin /june, dont know how much you two actually work with the skulls but i would suggest sitting one[maybe a darkish one like smoky quartz....or whatever one sais it wants to;)...dont know what you have] on col's tummy and doing some deep breathes....you might be surprised at the results...

as i suspect they are having a collateral effect on all around them....this is common...and would'nt be the first time they've stimulated a healing crisis in those around them , thats part of their role....

its all too common to look outside our sphere for answers when the answers we seek may be closer than we think...

love and blessings, paul medicine owl

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With respect Paul/Wise Owl, I know you are trying to help, but this is far more than the skulls triggering things. Yes I know that they can bring up an awful lot of stuff in people, but there really is far more to it than just that, as both physical and emotional are involved here.

The last fews days have been absoutely dreadful for both of us with lots of tears and wondering what on earth this is all about. It is beginning to feel as it we are being thwarted at every turn to try and find a solution to this. As Colin said the Doctor finally referred him to a specialist at the hospital (largely at my insistance), but we will have to wait anything up for three months for an appointment, and then that will mean more tests and more prodding and poking, which is the last thing he really wants. I know it is necessary as ultimately this is the only way to really get to the bottom of what is going on, but when you have such a fear of hospitals and needles, this is incredibly hard to have to face. It has taken him an enormous amount of courage to get this far. I am frightened though at the effect that all this is having on him, it is almost as if I am watching the man I love gradually slip deeper and deeper into this dreadful tunnel of pain and depression, and I am powerless to do anything about it. All I can do is be there for him and offer him as much support as I can, but sometimes even this does not seem enough.

For the past few nights he has had hardly any sleep, pacing up and down the house with pain, clutching his stomach with wave after wave of nausea and cramps. This morning it got so bad that I took him to casualty, but there was nothing even they could do, as according to them this is not an emergency. Instead they sent him back to the GP, saying that he needed to expedite the process of referral to the specialist. Both of are very rapidly reaching the end of our tether, and just don't know where to turn next.

There have been so many things going round in my mind these last few days. What if this is something more sinsister than just stomach pains and nausea, how would I cope if he had to go into hospital, what about the financial situation as we are not married, should be make wills, how would I cope if God forbid the worst happened and he was taken away from me. I do not want to think about these things at all, but they keep going round and round in my mind, and distrtacting me from the thngs that I need to be doing. I even gave someone the wrong change at work the other day because I was so distracted, and customers have been taking one look at me and telling me to cheer up. I know I can't but I feel like telling them to f*** off as they know nothing about the pain we are going thorugh, but all this would achieve is the sack which would then mean even more problems. It is time I had a chat with the Personnel Dept I think and explained to them what has been happening, as I know that neither of us can go on like this. At some point something will have to give. I just hope it isn't one of us.

Sorry to unburden myself so much here, but writing like this does in some strange way seem to help, by getting all the feelings out into the open. I know there is probably nothing more than anyone else here can do other than send healing thoughts and love, but that in its own way helps too.

I don't know where we both would have been without you wonderful people here.

June

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June and Colin

I have no practical help to offer you, which I know you so desperately need, but just wanted you both to know that I am sending you both positive thoughts and much love right now.

[sm=hug.gif][sm=hug.gif]

Lesley

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If you can't unburden yourself here, then where can you?

It's important to differentiate between stomach pain (upper left abdomen & can refer up into chest (left side - mid line, but not right side) and abdominal pain that is more likely to be from small or large intestine. I haven't included the other possibilities because A&E should have picked them up.

I'm not a pharmaceutical fan, as will know, if you've read any of my posts, but a different GP may offer to prescribe muscle relaxants if it's gut pain. Or H2 inhibitors for stomach pain, but they are available over the counter for short term use, in the form of Zantac & Pepsid AC or something like that.

Other OTC drugs that may help are anti-histamines, if my theory is right about food allergy/sensitivity, then at least Colin will get some sleep. If that does help, then get an allergy test ASAP, which may mean a restricted diet in the short term, but some relief. Beyond that as I say look into NAET.

The acupuncture point Spleen 6 - which is 3 fingers above the inner bump of the ankle & just behind the bone (tibia), find the tender point & give a good rub.

Andrew.

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Hi june, the technique i suggested is a small adaptation of a powerful shamanic technique and not to be sniffed at......
tho i think going by your 'anti' response nothing much is going to help whilst your in the space you are both in...

no magic wand for me to wave and make it all go away......and even if i could i would'nt as their is always a very good reason for such stuff within the grand scheme of things....i say that with confidence because ive been 'there' too...

perhaps you should sit down quietly and consider why you are both being apparently blocked from coventional medicine with this crisis....

you still have no real idea of the power of the crystals i think......and if you had really respected my suggestion you would not have been so quick to chuck it back at me ....

at times i do wonder why i bother impart my knowledge on HP if its to be taken so lightly and i hope that gives some insight to those who wonder why i give it here so infrequently here as i do these days...

love and blessings, paul medicine owl.

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Dear Paul

I am very sorry if you think that I chucked your words back in your face, but I assure this that this was definately NOT what I intended. In fact if you read my post again you will see that I actually thanked you for trying to help. I was simply trying to point out that although the skulls (and other crystals) in all likelihoopd could help, this would not be a long term solution. Believe you me, you do not train for 2 years as a crystal therapist, and share your home with 31 skulls without learning a thing or two about them. In the end though, it not really my decision as to how best to proceed, but Colin's, it is after all his body.

I have to say that I too find your turn of phrase extremely insensitive bearing in mind the situation that both of us are currently in, but will try not to get too angry about it, as to be quite honest life is too short, and I have more important things to worry about.

I hope this doesn't sound too insensitive and insulting to you, but as someone else said if I can't unburden myself here then where can I?

June

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Hi June and Colin - sending my love and empathy to you both.

Wise Owl - I can understand your feelings, as sometimes when we have had direct experience of something very powerful and effective, we are almost desperate, motivated BY our empathy for the suffering of others, for them to try whatever we suggest, and it can be disappointing when nothing seems to come of it -

My experiences with The Journey, as I have already described, have been so incredible, that I feel as if I am on a soapbox, such is my urge to tell everyone about it. To see problems that my family and I have struggled with for so many years literally melt away, is astounding.

But all we can do is pass it on, and try to learn that good old Buddhist atittude of detachment !

June and Colin, I really do pray with all my heart that you find the answers that you look for. Although I don't know you, I wish I could give you both a huge gentle hug, for sometimes life does seem so unfair, even if we know deep down that there is always a reason for our suffering.

With love Ru xxxx

RE: Can someone help before we both go mad!

Darling June,

Please try to calm yourself - Colin is not going to be taken from you. He just needs to know what is happening to him, and then you'll both be able to handle it and feel more calmness between you both. Colin's confession to cross-dressing may have triggered this, or it may not have anything at all to do with it. It may be a mental situation, rather than a physical one. The mind can make the body very ill.

I am sending my love and healing energy to you both. Please try not to panic - a solution will be found.

Love,
Patsy.
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