A couple of people have asked me not to leave. I am going through a difficult time right now and probably am too sensitive. Sacral said some helpful things to me and I am begining to feel like maybe my communication skills are not as good as I thought.
The Reiki trainings gave me an understanding of my hot hands and filled a need in me to understand more about what drives me, hurts me and what makes me happy.
I have to say...at least one day a week I wonder if I have lost my mind. How can these things be true? That's one reason I came to this chatroom and am unable to disengage. To ask if others are experiencing these kinds of happenings. When people ask questions like "why do you want to...?" Or say ego this or that? I feel judged and condemned. But there is something I have to learn here or give here. I am unable to disengage.
On Monday, I wonder if I am a witch? Tuesday, am I psysophrenic? Wednesday, should I check into a psyc ward? I look for someone that has experienced these things and don't find what I need in method or philosophical debate.
Yes, did chakra enhancment. Yes I did 3rd eye opening exercises. Yes I did 3rd eye and crown chakra conection exercise. Yes gave gratitude and called out to be all I could be and be reconnected to my memory of my true self. To be a tool. To know the lessons I am to learn. To know what I committed to doing while I was here.
And what happened was like a bomb went off in my brain, my aura and my life.
My understanding of the light workers is to lend love, aid and comfort to the coming generation of indigo children and others that are geneticly evolving. They are old souls ushering in a golden age of returning to the faculties and abilities that have been lost. When we once again use all of our dna and all of our brains. Then there are other souls that are going to live for the first time...the crystal children. And they will only come to homes with no discord.
Paxton Robey explains this all so much better than I. I just sound like I'm crazy. To find who you are is not trying to be special...it's about your life having purpose. It's not about ego...it's about direction. It's about making sense and order out of no sense and disorder.
It's not about being conected or not conected to the source. It's not about ego. It's about sanity and the meaning of this life journey and getting it right. And heaven forbid? Enjoying it? It's about feeling alone or finding like spirits for suport and reality checks.
And please don't tell me to relax it will come. I am 63 and the time is now. I feel a sense of urgency.
I think it is important to tell those following this thread, that I have received numerous email letters of support from people unwilling to post here. Asking me to stay. That my input is needed. The contention has to end.
That is a sign that the atmosphere here doesn't promote freedom of expression... but fear of ridicule 🙁
Just stop it! No more! Just stop it!
I don't understand why you think I have to define myself as a healer or an energy healer. Because it is comfortable to you?
And then am I not the Reiki master/teacher you think I should be?
I have to define what lightworker means? Its in wickipedia. It's all over the Internet.
Why must you define me? Tell me I am separate or think I am special or not acepting who I am?
All these statements are judgemental. Can't any one see that? Tell me your feelings, tell me your stories, don't pick me apart and have me for lunch.
If you have no opinion on this subject? Don't pick me a part sentance by sentance. Go post somewhere else. There are people with opinions on this subject but afraid of the dissection that comes.
Most of the people that would come here are healers, gentle folk, tender and loving. Let them be. Nurture them or leave them alone.
JUST STOP IT! NO MORE! JUST STOP IT!
Hi Stephanie
People are trying to help you to achieve your goals on the forum in their own ways, one of your goals is to embrace self in an open and non-judgemental way so that you can become whole and move into alignment with your authentic self, another goal is to go on a journey with a mission to find a purpose to become something. Unfortunately both goals are in opposition to each other. 🙂
Nobody can tell anyone what they are, nobody can tell anyone what is right for them, nobody can tell anyone what they should choose to do, the choices are always theirs. 🙂
When you choose which path you wish to pursue, then you will receive help from the members who can help you to move in that direction if you still need help, it is the choice which is causing the internal unrest, you can always choose to change your mind later on if the chosen path does not give you what you expected it to, but a path of indecision is alway filled with inner discord and unrest untill the choice is made.
I hope that helps.
I don't understand why you think I have to define myself as a healer or an energy healer. Because it is comfortable to you?
And then am I not the Reiki master/teacher you think I should be?
I have to define what lightworker means? Its in wickipedia. It's all over the Internet.
Why must you define me? Tell me I am separate or think I am special or not acepting who I am?
All these statements are judgemental. Can't any one see that? Tell me your feelings, tell me your stories, don't pick me apart and have me for lunch.
If you have no opinion on this subject? Don't pick me a part sentance by sentance. Go post somewhere else. There are people with opinions on this subject but afraid of the dissection that comes.
Most of the people that would come here are healers, gentle folk, tender and loving. Let them be. Nurture them or leave them alone.
JUST STOP IT! NO MORE! JUST STOP IT!
I don't think anyone told you you have to define yourself with any particular label. That was the point I was (and others were) making, you can choose whatever label(s) you like, but it won't change who you are and what you want to do, so as long as you're happy moving forward on your journey you're doing the right thing for you.
I wasn't asking you to define what lightworker means... yes there are 'definitions' on the internet, but different places will define it differently, and different people will interpret the definitions differently. So it was more a question of asking what you understand by the term lightworker yourself, as you are asking if others are also lightworkers... how can people say "yes we're lightworkers like you" if we don't know for sure what you mean by it. 😉
I apologise if the philosophical discussion is not what you wanted, but that is the way some discussions go, and when I talked of ego, I did try and make it clear that I wasn't talking about it in the social sense which is perceived as a negative thing. We all have ego (in the philosophical sense) and it's that which creates duality and conflict... but I won't go on about it as you don't want that philosphical side of discussion. That's ok. 🙂
As for the people who've contacted you to say they don't want to post here... well I guess they have their own reasons, and that's their choice. It's a shame they choose not to share their own thoughts with everyone.
All Love and Reiki Hugs
Please listen to Stephanie, and how she feels. I think it's wonderful there are so many people willing to help, maybe the approaches need to be tailored to what would benefit Stephanie. Stephanie - what would help you at the moment with your lightworker question? xxx
I'm sorry Paul, but all the smiley faces and "hope that helps" does not address the fact that you...just don't get it.
You don't have to correct peoples thinking or show them their question is incorrectly asked due to their missunderstanding of the nature of things.
Did I ask you for help? No I asked the members her if they thought they were lightworkers. Did I have a problem? I asked a question.
THEN I HAD A PROBLEM... with the judgements of some and their feeling that I needed to be saved from my misconceptions. My sense of separateness or superiority or specialness? You'd think that trying to grow and become was a crime.
You just don't see how judgemental you are. And yes that is a judgement call on my part but I have been on the other side of your HELP. And I can tell you from my perspective...your help FEELS like you are the parent you are setting me straight.
And you CAN HEAR THAT or say it's my problem because because because...and it will be denial.
I ask you to step back and look in the mirror and ask "Do I need to save everyone from their misconceptions or maybe look at what they are actually saying?"
Hi Stephanie
You are quite correct, I do not understand how trying to become one aspect of our expression in isolation to the vastness that we are, will make us complete within the fullness of self and authentic to the wholeness of who we are. which happens to be everything!
As you say you did not ask for my help on the forums, you asked for that through PMing me.
I do not try and be anything or portray myself as anything to self or anybody else, I am happy to share my understanding to members of the forum, but I am not responsible for the way that they choose to interpret my thoughts or how they choose to perceive me.
Hi Stephanie
You are quite correct, I do not understand how trying to become one aspect of our expression in isolation to the vastness that we are, will make us complete within the fullness of self and authentic to the wholeness of who we are. which happens to be everything!
As you say you did not ask for my help on the forums, you asked for that through PMing me.
I do not try and be anything or portray myself as anything to self or anybody else, I am happy to share my understanding to members of the forum, but I am not responsible for the way that they choose to interpret my thoughts or how they choose to perceive me.
. But Stephanie has categorically asked to stop it. that is clear enough request isn't it?. Why keep baggering? She is the poster of the query, she wants it stopped. That is how it should be.
It takes time to absorb. She has heard, seen....she needs to get away....Not entitre life's teaching gonna happen in this one thread. Let it be.
Space and time are needed to absorb energy, tips, input etc
Need a break from it all. It will find its own level within her. The process is greater than the seeker or the teacher. One must trust it.
She is being looked after same as anyone else. Things will come clicking in place when it has gone off the radar.
Put the kettle on! Let's all have a kitkat!
Please listen to Stephanie, and how she feels. I think it's wonderful there are so many people willing to help, maybe the approaches need to be tailored to what would benefit Stephanie. Stephanie - what would help you at the moment with your lightworker question? xxx
I was wondering if there were like thinkers here to connect with and support each other in the lightworker journey. I wanted to know if there were people aware of it. I threw it out there to see what the respose was. I was truly not prepared for what came.
There are so many new spirits coming here being dignosed autistic when they are actually telipathic. They are very sensitive and need healers attuned to their needs. They are brilliant people...children and adults that have been treated poorly and misunderstood. These people have difficulty reaching their potential because they needed less stimulation because of their sensitivity and "circular one subject at a time" style if learning instead of "linear" as is the common traditional form of teaching.
I touch people and they cry. I am called to let them release their pain. Its shocking but I am accepting it as calmly as possible. understand or intuitively seem to know what to tell mothers on how to relate to a problem with a "different" child. Let them learn one subject at a time...let them paint all day (just keep buying them supplies) and silently interpret their art, ask them to talk about it), don't act surprised if they paint auras or people that are not there, or scream around negative people or situations. These children and their families need support.
Not HELP...support...Not doctors and endless tests. They need healers available to them. They need intuitive responses not philosophy or dogma. They need psyhics available to help them understand. They may need help accessing their spirit guides or intuitive abilities.
Are you here? Are you awakened to the need? If not? OK. If this doesn't resonate with you? OK. If you think I need a shrink? OK.
But being here, in combination with my readings and psychic exercises has opened me to my responsibility. It's been a ruff awakening. It hurt. I cried. Some really kind people here helped...well actually maybe even the conflict helped? My reality broke open at the seams. I got terrible headaches from some of the exersises. But I am awake and know what I need to do.
Now I don't know that all lightworker journeys look the same? I believe (at this time, I may feel different next week) that it is an intuitive spiritual, mental and physical "on call" type of healer at large...with hightened energy healing, psychic and intuitive awakenings.
I just wanted to know if there are like thinkers here?
And yes Paul, I did contact you privately. You said this was outside your area of expertise and you suggested I contact someone else.
There is private and public. Private is private and public is public. You said this was outside your area of expertise and yet you still pound endlessly away at me even when asked to stop. You publicly post my private messages and carry on and carry on (about ego?).
Where is the administrator of this forum?
Hi Jnani
I am only responding because things keep getting addressed towards me, it does not matter to me if what I say is accepted or rejected, but when asked or told something I usually respond, if there is nothing to respond to then I do not have anything to say. 😉
Hi Stephanie,
My understanding encompasses wholeness and divisions within consciousness, that is what my posts are usually about, I understand that within a conversation, everyone is entitled to put forth that which they perceive, but if we are not allowed to respond to other people who address us, then there is not much point in having a discussion forum. 🙂
But I am happy to stop chatting with you on this subject.
Stephanie
Actually i know exactly what you are talking about but i see no need for a label my understanding is simply innate. In fact if you were to go back a number of years you would find some interesting old posts of mine (and my ex wife's) on Asbergers etc.
Autism/asbergers is nothing new but when i grew up you were just different.. Indigo/crystal/whatever is simply a new age twist
Of course there is a lot of stuff that these kids don't need, they generally prefer the company of Spirit to people. Medication and labels that make them stand out in the eyes of society do a great deal of harm.
If some of these kids are approaching you then you need no written knowledge, no understanding of what might be wrong. They are reacting to what is inside you, just be yourself and let your naturalness speak for itself, they will get what they need. They can truly see you!
Thanks Steve, its my understanding that the labels that are being put on the children are a response to the labels that the medical profession is putting on these children. Maybe the label of lightworker is also to help these children to have a group of first responders (kind of). To draw out the people that would resonate with this calling?
Labels are just a form of communication. Instead of having to say all the "differences, gifts and challenges" these children have? We can say Indigo children. But it is also my understanding that those that can see auras... see them as having an indigo colored aura.
So while the medical community classifies them by a term that focuses on the lack and their disabilities...the healing or psychic community focuses on their superior evolutionary abilities and how to enable the fruition of the this evolution. Welcoming the diversity of our species.