Think I'm going to have a nervous breakdown

Hi All

Not sure if this is the right forum to use or if I should go to the mental / emotional forum.

Basically I'm pregnant, and I'm incredibly highly strung. I have a (nearly) four year old who is also highly strung (gets it from me) and she has sever temper tantrums about all sorts of things, and I think that this in combination with my pregnancy hormones is making me lose it all the time.

I literally can feel my blood pressure raising and it feels like I'm about to 'pop' somehow. Sometimes its feels like I'm tensing up and getting so upset that my heart is about to jump out of my chest, or like my eyeballs are about to pop out from their sockets. I go red in the face, I'm clenching everything, and I have no way of getting rid of all this pent up energy and emotions.

I've tried deep breaths and counting, but half the time I explode without time to think about it after being nagged constantly by my duaghter, (whilst also coping with my 8 month old son who is actually an angel, but has natural demands of a baby). When I do try to give her a warning that I'm reaching that level, she kicks off so badly that it just makes the situation worse.

I'm looking into whether I have a child who needs help. Maybe this is the start of adhd or something, I'm not sure. Maybe she's just like any other 4 year old and I'm just terrible at coping with it.

What I should say is that I've had a history of depression. I was very depressed years ago and went onto Seroxat. I then came off of that and was fine. Then after having my daughter, I went onto Prozac when she was about 7 months old because I wasn't coping and getting short tempered etc.

I've been to a homeopath too, but I didn't really get far with it quickly enough and had to stop the sessions because of money. We ascertained that maybe I don't suffer from depression after all, but suffer more with anger and high tension. I've been to a hypnotherapist twice and will phone and make another appointment again.

Sorry for the waffle but as you can imagine its taken a lot for me to get to the point of asking for help and explaining everything. I just want to know if there is a natural sedative or something I could take whilst being pregnant? I've been using rescue remedy which I guess might help but I don't know if I should use it often and continuously or not.

Thanks if you got this far in reading.

Newflower