I have lost my faith due to all the losses that had occurred in my family. I just keep replaying all the betrayals like a bad movie in my head. I am blinded by all this negativity and can't find my way out of the rut that I am in right now.
Sorry to hear of your loss. It is not easy, not only for you but for anyone who loses a loved one. Such is life. It has its shocks and hardly anyone can escape unbruised when life decides to shock us.
Please take heart that your sorrow and grief is felt, understood and shared by many.
Normally, when trials and tests such as deep loss occur.... a jumble of feelings of grief, sorrow, sadness, loss, confusion, injustice, questioning, shattering of faith hope happen.
Even if it happens to people, when it so close to home, it always leave us wondering with an unsatiable why. What you call as loss of faith is not that at all. it is just confusion, anger, pain and bewilderment. This will be the stepping stone to have faith if you can use the enrgy of this with receptivity
Hurt and pain are not naturally pleasing...so we try to escape/avoid spain...which means the debris of unfelt emotion stay with us. That becomes a heavy load to carry and it gets heavier.
Allowing the pain, allowing the grief, the confusion fully is the way out of this rut. Mind is s rut. It just keeps regurgitating the stuff that is sat there as unfelt feeling.
Do weep, cry if that wants to happen but decide to fully embrace the pain as a friend rather than a foe. Open your heart's door to it, let it enter you fully, let it engulf you if it must...become vulnerable to it(That is what we keep saving ourselves. The avoidance causes us to undergo suffering many times more than if we accept it and stay with it)
When you open your heart to pain, its energy transforms. It becomes gentle. It begins to lose its sting and stab.
The rut will drop without your participation.
Do know that every suffering just exposes your true strength, faith, courage and ability to overcome situations.
You are always being looked after, if that feeling is attended to then that feeling starts to spread right across your entire life.
This too shall pass....and pass beautifully...leaving you in grace.
love
It's difficult for me to cry as I always felt that it was only for weak. I will however give it a try. Thank you for advice.
It's difficult for me to cry as I always felt that it was only for weak. I will however give it a try. Thank you for advice.
Hello Lora
I'm sorry to read how your feeling at the moment, you must be going through such a emotional,confusing and upsetting time. Maybe feeling helpless at times.
The belief that crying for the weak is a belief that children are often taught, something you yourself may have learned once as a youngster as I expect many other people?. To be belittled for crying after being punished in some way affects our emotional growth.
To help the crying to begin connect with your deepest emotion which could have been how you felt about a loved one? try not to be afraid to go to that place,. Once you begin to feel the emotions rise up to a point where you have a choking feeling, tight throat or a deep sadness within the heart then suddenly to find these emotions become blocked because the thought comes into your mind that you are weak to feel this and shouldn't do, if you may then find yourself trying to swallow the sadness back down, then turn your attention to how sad this thought and action has just made you feel, that it tells you that you are not allowed to cry?, how can it? you may ask, to tell you not to feel or cry?, feel the sadness and pity this part of yourself that feels too weak to cry for this is the part of you that needs your love,nurturing and acceptance, a child that wants to be told 'its ok', to want to let go and let out these feelings and thoughts held onto for such a long time. Give this part of you permission, that there is no need to hold away any more.
Help that part of you to scream out as it never has before, for it needs you permission to do so, maybe its now time to free the hidden child in you that was once silenced.
I know its easier said than done. Its not easy, I hope you may find a way through this time.
Hope this may help in some way?
Take Care
Andre
Beliefs can be quite flexible
We either turn to or against in times of difficulty
This is nothing to do with the strength of beliefs
It is to do with being human and we all go through it
Nothing that you say is a surprise in any shape or form
When the dust settles you will come down on on side or another
Is is pain that ties you to beliefs in some shape or form
Direction will be your decision at some point in time
And it may not be your first or last change of beliefs
I will work on the inner child. Thank you for your advice.
Hello Lora
I'm sorry to read how your feeling at the moment, you must be going through such a emotional,confusing and upsetting time. Maybe feeling helpless at times.
The belief that crying for the weak is a belief that children are often taught, something you yourself may have learned once as a youngster as I expect many other people?. To be belittled for crying after being punished in some way affects our emotional growth.
To help the crying to begin connect with your deepest emotion which could have been how you felt about a loved one? try not to be afraid to go to that place,. Once you begin to feel the emotions rise up to a point where you have a choking feeling, tight throat or a deep sadness within the heart then suddenly to find these emotions become blocked because the thought comes into your mind that you are weak to feel this and shouldn't do, if you may then find yourself trying to swallow the sadness back down, then turn your attention to how sad this thought and action has just made you feel, that it tells you that you are not allowed to cry?, how can it? you may ask, to tell you not to feel or cry?, feel the sadness and pity this part of yourself that feels too weak to cry for this is the part of you that needs your love,nurturing and acceptance, a child that wants to be told 'its ok', to want to let go and let out these feelings and thoughts held onto for such a long time. Give this part of you permission, that there is no need to hold away any more.
Help that part of you to scream out as it never has before, for it needs you permission to do so, maybe its now time to free the hidden child in you that was once silenced.
I know its easier said than done. Its not easy, I hope you may find a way through this time.
Hope this may help in some way?
Take Care
Andre
I have lost my faith due to all the losses that had occurred in my family. I just keep replaying all the betrayals like a bad movie in my head. I am blinded by all this negativity and can't find my way out of the rut that I am in right now.
Hi there
Sorry to hear about your problems during this incarnation, I can understand you to a point in losing your faith, there is a book that I read, that gives me all the strength I need, it is available online and I will put a link for it, it doesn't link you in with any church or religion or a cult, it is just you and this book, I have been reading it for a long time.
There are people here who criticize it, but they are not open I believe to reading it or absorbing it as it should be absorbed, and draw nothing from it at this time.
This is how the author recommends it should be read=
(The hearer and reader of my lectures should always work within himself, keenly probing and building bridges from one lecture to the other, as well as out into the great and small world happenings! Only then will he be able to understand the Grail Message and find that it gradually shapes itself into one complete whole without leaving any gaps. Again and again in all the happenings the reader will come back to the basic features. He can explain everything and deduce everything without even having to change even one whole sentence …”
The author recommends that the lectures be read in sequence, and not picked out individually. Only in this way can the reader do justice to the work, and so find the answer to men’s questions about life, grasp the recognitions of the meaning of life, and thus achieve the right upbuilding.)
I personally prefer to read from the book.
[url]The Grail Message | Table of Contents[/url]
Peace and light
Peter
I have lost my faith due to all the losses that had occurred in my family. I just keep replaying all the betrayals like a bad movie in my head. I am blinded by all this negativity and can't find my way out of the rut that I am in right now.
Good, and I do not mean that in a mean way. You cannot seek God if you already idol worship a Godinabook. Which is likely what you have always done. You likely did not choose your God but inherited him through your family. Right?
I recommend that you look at the method for apotheosis shown in this clip. It was not my exact path but is the best rendering I can find.
Trust that the Godhead you find, if you seek hard enough, is superior to the genocidal son murdering God Christianity has on offer.
[url]1A Hidden Meanings In Bible - YouTube[/url]
Regards
DL