Blackcrow - Namaste - and sincerest THANKS 🙂
I don't know if it is down to all of your loveliness and healing and prayers - I don't know for a fact - but frankly, that where my credit goes. BUT, I thought that I would give everyone on here a quick update on the situation... hopefully anyone going through anything similar may gleen some benefit... it's incredible really, there has been a major break through!
Today after the most shamefully horrendous row between myself and a family member, where I was determined to make them just tell the truth about what went on... (but to absolutely no avail) I went for a very very long walk and was determined - that's it finished, all contact ends here... but the most incredible thing happened - it was almost like I had no control over what was happening, but after the walk I found myself going back to see them, and then, still almost like I couldn't control what was coming out of my mouth I said "sorry, I don't want to argue, as far as I'm concerned - everything in the past" - even though parts of my mind were saying "hang on I'm not the one who should be sorry" and other negative things - but those words came out of my mouth, we blubbed, hugged and I now know for a fact a line has been drawn under the matter.
It's not going to be the same, they will no longer have the whole of me (if that makes sense), and there will no doubt be some serious tongue biting going on in the future. BUT I strongly beleive the long long time I have wasted being eaten up with hurt have ended.
..and I do beleive I you lovely HP members to thank for that --- otherwise --- how come this never happened before!
Hope this my prove helpful info for others who may find themselves in a similar predicament.
Once again, many many thanks,
LOVE printemps