My health visitor came round today.
She has offered me 6 talk sessions once a week, she was very kind and it really helped to have someone to listen to me talk.
Feeling stronger each day many thanks dear friends.
I did not sleep last night but i know i will now
Thank you
Angelflower
Hi Angelflower
Thats good, that you have been able to talk to your health visitor. Also to have those talk sessions with her over the next six weeks. She sounds very understanding.
If you are feeling depressed try and come on here and talk about how your are feeling. You might not feel like it. I know I felt very out of my depth, I just needed to talk to someone who had post natal depression. I found people that hadn`t had it just did not realise how awful I felt.
I can remember once someone said just pull yourself together. How could I pull myself together. I was crying all day every day. I was not on this planet. I found just getting out of bed a struggle. I felt I was barely existing.Thank god I had lots of support from my family. I really dont know what I would have done without them. The first three months of my daughters life. Are a complete blur. All I remember is crying and being totally depressed. I was in this very dark tunnel that I didn`t think I was going to come out of.
BUT I DID.
I am glad you are feeling stronger. YOU WILL FEEL BETTER.
Lets us know how you go on.
Best wishes
Sunrise:)
Hi angelflower, I'm so glad you talked to your healthvisitor, it's the fist step to overcoming PND.
Sunrise your post brought tears to my eyes, it's so simular to how I felt after my second baby, i remember just crying and crying & feeling so guilty, on the surface to visitors I was fine, I felt like I had to mask it & 'cope' alone I was in tears, my husband just thought I needed to 'get a grip'...gosh it was such an awful dark time...I'm so glad that PND was known about then so I could speak to my HV with ease, and as soon as I did it was such a release and a reasurance at the same time
PLease keep us posted angelflower, sending you lots of love & Angel hugs
Love
Amy
xxx
Hi Amy
Yes I felt guilty. I can remember thinking why do I feel like this. I have a lovely healthy daughter. Whats wrong with me. It felt like my world had fallen apart. I dont think I will ever forget that very dark feeling that I had.
My poor husband didn`t know what hit him. He had to look after our daughter as well as me falling to bits. Also going to work. How he coped I dont know. He did confess to me months later. That he would just go off and have a cry. Because he found it hard seeing me in bits. Not knowing what to do for the best. At the end of the day I found I just needed lots of cuddles and support from him. Which I got.
I felt so alone. Even though I was never left on my own. As I did feel sucidal for a while. But thank goodness that feeling didn`t last too long.
Unfortunatly my health visitor wasn`t much help. But I do think that post natal depression is talked about much more these days. I think health vistors are much more aware of it.
I do think that post natal depression, should be talked about more before you have the baby, So if you do go on to have it you can seek help sooner rather than later.
Luckily I was only depressed with my first daughter. I was fine with my second.
Best wishes
Sunrise
Gosh I was really lucky, my health visitor was a star, I know I was lucky to of had her! I didn't suffer at all with my 1st or 3rd baby, I think pnd isn't something anyone can predict, it just hits you (and those around you!)
Angelflower, as you can see, you do get through it :hug:
xxx