Hi everyone,
Please may Iaskyouto send some healing energy and light to my husband, Steve, and to remember us in your prayers today, if possible.I am so desperate for help.
This may be long winded, please bear with me.
Stevehas been mentally unwell for a very long time and has been progressivelygetting worse. He has been under the care of the local mental health team since last year, has attempted suicide twice,and his doctor has wanted to "section" him under the mental health act on more than one occasion, but subequently choseanother route because Steveis so scared of being "locked up".Itall stems from abuse in his childhood and years of subsequent self-harm. He can be completely normal and calm and then something switches in him, and within minutes he becomes abusive,violent and irrational. The abuse and aggression is normally directed towards me or anyone else who crosses his path. The physical violenceis normally towards inane objects like doors and walls but more recently has been directed towards me. Tonight was the worse I have ever experienced and I now have a bloody nose,bruises,and can't speak very well as he throttled me several times. I can still feel his hands round my neck. He doesn't mean it, he won't even remember he has done it in the morning. It could have been anyone, it just happened to be mebut I couldn't take any more and phoned the police and his worst nightmare has happened - he has been sectionedand taken to hospital. I didn't want to get him into trouble, I was just really afraid and wanted help.The way the violence has been escalatingI really believe the next time he will kill me (and the police officer agreed).I feel so bad because of what I have done butI am relieved. Maybe now he will get the help he needs.
Sorry for waffling on, thank you for listening to me.I would be so grateful forany healing energy you can send. Thanks again.
Jill
RE: For my husband - your prayers please
hi Jill
am sending you both lots of healing energy and poitive thoughts.
don't feel guilty, you cannot cope with this on your own and what you did was the right thing for you both in the moment.
i know very little about mental illness, but if you want to pm me please do, anytime. there are lots of lovely people here who, i am sure, will have much more useful advice.
love and blessings
blackcat
RE: For my husband - your prayers please
My dear Jill,
You are not waffling, your frankness and the time of your post moved me. I really don't know what to say, apart from my deepest sympathy for you and your husband.
I will include both of you in my prayers as soon as I post this.
With love and light,
Sue.
RE: For my husband - your prayers please
Jill
Please do not feel guilty as you have done the right thing for both of you, although Steve may not see that at the moment - this will be an oppurtunity for him to get the help he needs and for you to both move forward in your lives together. You have not 'waffled on' in the telling of this and have come across as a very loving person who has been out of there depth with this situation for quite a while.
My love and prayers are with you and Steve.
x
RE: For my husband - your prayers please
Sorry to hear of your ordeal sending love and support to your husband - hope he gets all the support he needs where he is, but sending you lots of love, support, healing thoughts and poisitivity too.
I agree with the others that yoiu should not feel guilty, he is in the right place and you couldn't risk your welfare any longer.
Sending you strength too and will keep you in my thoughts,
Love Jo x