Starting to get worried...

Hi everyone,

I haven't posted in a long time but the time has come for me to visit the forums again.

My period is late...they have always been fairly irregular and my cycle is longer than most (34 - 36 days). But for roughly the past year my periods have been much better - more like28 - 34 days and regular - at least I've never missed one. And I suffer with PMT so I'm quite good at reading my body and knowing when I'm due or what stage I'm at.

The last period I have written down is 2nd April, although I know I had one more after that - but silly me forgot to write it down!! Very frustrating as I'm usually so good. I think it could have been anywhere between Monday 30th April and Monday 7th May. But I did have one. So currently I could be at least on day 43. In the past my longest period was probably around this length (apart from when I first came off the pill, but I know that is usual).

I haven't really had the feeling that I'm going to come on - although I have lower/mid backache and sort of dull period pains that keep coming and going. Also I have the white discharge that I would usually get mid-cycle, not right before a period is due.

Do you think it's possible I've 'skipped' a period and my cycle is going back round again?

I know the only common sense answer is to get a test but I am being a total wimp! I'm in a wonderful relationship, we have a beautiful new 3 bedroom house, but we're only mid-20s (which I know isn't that young to have children) and we've always said we'd get married, then have kids in a few years. So to have this thrown at me is very strange and potentially life-changing indeed. I am really frightened that I will do that test and it may turn out positive. I don't know how much longer I can put it off though. I know it could be nothing at all but then it might be...

I have always wanted a family but there are so many things I want to do before I have a child and places I want to see. I know that everything happens for a reason - what will be will be - but at the same time I am really terrified of growing up too quickly, settling down and then having life pass me by.

Sorry for the rant!

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