Trinity you dont suffer with SP alone

Hi every one expecially trinityx because I too suffer with SP. I dont get them alot but when i do it comes with avengence. I do however believe mine to be dreams of being frozen in my sleep. It is so wierd. I will talk about the experiance I had the other night and see if any one out there can relate.

It started when i went to bed about 12 and it does take me ages to get to sleep at night. usually about an hour to an hour and a half. Any way when i finally droped of I think i was asleep for about half an hour before i realised I couldn't move. I was in my bed apsolutely frozewn and only able to move my eyes, and even though i have had this experiance thousands of times the fear and anxiety i feel is the same everytime. At the time it is happening i believe i am awake. as most people do when they dream. they believe that the dream they are in is reality. just like the matrix. I then start to try to shake myself out of it. and i really really force myself to move an arm a hand or just a finger, but no mater how hard i try i cant. on a few occasions i am aware of someone else in the room with me. standing right next to my bed but i cant turn my head around to see them. I try to say to myself relax it is only a dream. it is only SP and it will go in a minute. But an overwhelming fear streams over me that a demon or something evil is trying to take over my body. and that if i dont come out of the sp very shortly i will die. on a few ocasions i have actually repeated to my self "the demons wont win they wont get me i am stronger than what they are!" All the time I am trying to move. My arm then starts slowly to movbe but it is such an effort. It moves then falls back to the bed as if it is dead. I then try to fall out of bed on purpose. Anything to wake up from this nightmare. Then suddenly and without warning I am awake.My heart is beating so fast. My body is covered in sweat as i look around the room checking that i am on my own although i cant be sure. It is times like this i wish i had someone to wake up and give me comfort that everything is allright. but i am alone. I want to go back to sleep but i am scared so i get out of bed and switch the telly on. I need a distraction i dont want to go back to sleep just yet. I know that i will have another one if i go straight back to bed.

I knew i had work in the morning so i had no choice but to go back to bed but that night i had SP after SP i think i only had l2 hours of sleep all night. the last one i had my body was so drained and felt so heavy but even so i was terrified of going back to sleep. I do know however that they are only dreams. but because you are dreaming that you are in your bed and dreaming that you are awake but cant move the feeling is that you are awake. But honestly you dont know how terrifying they are untill you have experienced them. Thje time it is happening i truely believe that some evil force is trying to kill me. and when i wake up i truely believe that i have just escaped with my life. So any one out there including Trinity who suffers with SP my heart is with you because i know what they are like.