~a little bit of background first: ive recently moved about 300 miles from where i've lived for the past 12 years, to live with my mother. i needed a change from some emotional issues (boyfriend of 3 years killed himself last february) and some social issues (was mixed up with the wrong people and scene for about the past 4 years, and more so since his death (depression, alcohol, etc.)
~Since ive been here (3 weeks) ive had a dream of some sort every night, but all the dreams have not been like any that ive ever had, or as often as i usually do.
~many of my recent dreams have been one where i cant wake up, i know im sleeping and dreaming but i struggle to wake up, it gives me an anxious and nervous feeling, during sleep AND in waking life. it's not like an out of body experience though.
~when i came to visit my mother (before my decision to move here) i had the same kind of dream, and i'll go as far as to say nightmare. one that sticks in my mind is a picture of all sorts of wooden ancient tribal masks, that are spinning, almost spiralling away from me!
~in visits to my mothers ive woken up crying, screaming, moaning, mumbling, sweating, shaking and afraid to fall back asleep (this also has happened several times back home)
~HELP! what does all this mean? how can i resolve whatever issue this is? does it have anything to do with my (ex?)boyfriend? or just my recent move?
Dreams
Hi - i'm no expert & i'm new to this site but reading your message i wonder if its possible that you have some concerns about moving back home? Sometimes being with our parents makes it difficult not to slide back in to old ways of thinking & behaving and perhaps you need to move in a different direction. The masks etc may be a suggestion that you are not facing up to the realities of your own needs or aspirations and are hiding behind a different persona. You will know if this makes sense to you as you know your situation better than anyone else. If it doesnt feel right to you then it probably isnt right & some other reason is behind it - listen carefully to your inner self and the answer will come to you.
Best wishes V