I've had several extremely worrying dreams, but I'll just do one at a time.
I'll start with the least frightening dream:
And as I sleapt I dreamed a dream.... It was very vivid, I can imagine it clearly.
I dreamed that I had four beautifull horses (all female). I can't express how comely they were. My horses pulled my cart and they took me all over. One day I rode into a town. The town was dull. The townsfolk gathered around me and they began to acuse my horses of being evil, giving the most absurd reasons yet the mass of the town was easily convinced. Presently they attacked my horses and me. I managed to escape but when I looked for my horses I couldn't find them. I looked and looked until eventually I found one of them dead, and then another dieing. I went over to my dieing horse and I cradled her perfect head in my arms; I knew she was dieing and that I couldn't help so I just held her. I was utterly dejected, the feeling was extreme and then she died. I was consumed by a black gal and I hid in an upstairs flat type of thing. I seemed to stay there for years, a recluse, a bitter, hatefull recluse. Then one day music began to play loudly from a neighbouring flat; I love music but some trully irritates me, and this music irritated me; it disturbed my years of bitter peace. When the music stopped I entered the building and there was a bass guitar sitting in a stand (in waking life I play bass). I picked the bass up and, consumed by rage I destroyed utterly the interiour of the flat with the bass; the windows and their frames, the walls, the furniture, everything I could smash. And then I ran away.
Two of my horses are dead. Two are lost, I've not found them yet.
When I woke up I told somebody "The ignorant killed my horses!".
So what does it mean?
I thought maybe that the horses represented some part of me, but I don't know what. Has a part of me died, or got lost?
From Thales.
RE: Frightening, harrowing dreams.
Hi there Thales,
Hmmm...quite an emotional dream you've had eh? Horses are suppose to represent good luck. I dream of horses quite alot but I can't say that I am or have had particularly good luck. Here I my thoughts, though not a doctor in things like this I hope my thoughts help.
Horses are very powerful beasties. They can represent travel, strength, leadership but also horses have a soft and very complex nature. Sometimes you know what they are thinking and sometimes you simply don't so there is an air of mystery regarding their actions. Your dream to me seems purged with anger and loss. Just a thought, but are there relationship problems in a part of your life or something from the past that hasn't been resolved? The townsfolk thinking you and your horses are evil; do you feel people are ganging up on you or that no-one shares your view on a particular subject or indeed you may not agree on someone else's or other people's point of view?
There is certainly a deep sense of loss from what you have written which changes into a form of anger. Because the horses are female they could represent a female influence in your past or present life. You also show alot of passion throughout your posting. The music may represent your need or wish for something wonderful to come along into your life and allow you "freedom" whether this be of the mind, the soul, the heart or the body. Music can be on all different vibrational levels and can influence one's own mood. The flat may be a representation of how you are feeling, within four walls, trapped or indeed on the other end of the scale - a safe haven. Do you feel out of control with an element of your life thus not being able to save the dying horse?
Saying the "ignorant killed my horses" to me shows you may have a ignorant person or influence around you? I think this time of year makes us all reflective. It's a time for the earth to start breathing out and the changes of the seasons affects those of us who are "sensitive". Perhaps your sub-conscious mind just needed a release? Don't be too frightened by your dream. It may be the key for you to find the answers your conscious is seeking. I don't think a part of you has died in anyway. I feel a part of us never truly dies; it may morphosise (change) or yes, we may lose it for a while along the way, but it always returns and makes us a stronger person.
Anyway, love & smilies to you.
Puss
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RE: Frightening, harrowing dreams.
Thankyou, much of what you have said is apparently true.
In no particular order: Yes, I live in a flat and it is my enclave, I hardly leave it, except to go to work, and I despise normal socialising (which is hardly social!) like clubbing, drunkenness in public and around strangers, watching television, fighting in the streets, casual sex, partys etc... I can not be around people, they are the ignorant influence in my life. I am a dissident and an aberation, yes I do disagree with popular opinions (the masses are asses in my world) and I can not stand bigotry, especially those ultra-bigots who truly believe that they are open minded intelectuals because they close every debate with "that's just your opinion" before running away. Yes, there is much from my past than hasn't been resolved, but they are things that won't resolve, all I can do is understand those people who have done decadent, hedonistic, abusive and degrading things to those I love and others who I know little of but care for just the same, all I can do is understand that wrong doing is ignorance and forgive them; indeed if I could not understand and forgive I would be driven to revenge.
I feel now after all that I have seen that I can never be a part of this society; I can never settle down into a career, I can not live the normal life, but waht choice do I have in this society? And when I do join in I am dejected and pine, PINE, for freedom.
As for people ganging up on me, I do feel like this happens, most people who I come into contact with, with a few precious exceptions, do not want to listen to me because they are scared of what I say; it makes them feel bad about the way they live their lifes, indeed some people even fear me. I was talking to an old friend about eternal recurance and they havn't spoken to me since except to say that what I was talking of frightened them a great deal; there is much truth in the saying "Ignorance is bliss", thus people mostly choose to ignore me as they ignore every other trully important thing in life.
And yes, I constantly feel like I am waiting. Waiting, as you said for something wonderfull.
Thank you again,
it is so nice to have someone listen to you.
Most cordially,
Thales.
RE: Frightening, harrowing dreams.
Know what? Dreams are quite easy to decifer. If you look at each element individually they kind of tell a story and if you look at the symbolism of each element they can be broken down and linked to a part of our lives. We can learn so much from our own dreams. Really fascinating me thinks.
From your reply though Thales, you appear a little cautious of actually having the power to not allow yourself to be bothered by other people if you think they are negative towards you. Yes, everyone is entitled to their opinion but you are entitled to yours too. Try not to carry anger towards others. This is only a feeling that YOU feel and it's oh so negative. If I don't like what others are saying or doing, then I have to really remind myself that " you know what Puss, you have a choice here. I can either decide to take their comments on board OR I can deflect it. I don't have to own their words. I picture myself like a glitter ball, with loads of tiny mirrors to which I can deflect back stuff I don't want". It's quite empowering really.
It's great to be different. It's great that you can identify those people you don't want to be around and your reasoning behind how to forgive other and understand others behaviour is fantastic, many people aren't able to see it for what it really is. Who says you have to confirm to society? If you feel people are ganging up on you, change the approach. Perhaps your passion is seen as aggression. I'm guilty of that at times and like you people have become wary of me in the past, which isn't really a nice thing to make other human being feel. So I've changed my approach, not conformed, just bent the rules let's say. Yes, ignorance is bliss but knowledge deepens delight and knowledge is power. There a lot of people like minded to you...I mean look at all these great people on this website. None of us are truly alone, even in our dreams.
Love & smilies
Puss
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