Please don't be offended by the title. If you've seen Walt Disney's "Sorcerers apprentice"? Then you might remember how much trouble he got into trying to do what he saw the Master do?
As I journey farther into this other world (the world of healing energy, spirit guides, auras and seeking enlightenment) seeing and feeling more than I could possibly imagine...I'm kinda scared.
As I try to give gratitude this day...I can't...and I hear a voice saying "don't be afraid" so I try. But as soon as I feel the conection...I get up and do something else. I don't think I can stand to know anymore.
Am I alone in this? Or do others have these feelings?
Hi gulfcoastms
I think much of it boils down to being ready for what unfolds .
Does one bite off more than they can chew and such likes .
I am the kind person that has no boundaries as such so in a way I have always gone that extra mile .
I had a dream just the other night actually that perhaps is quite apt where people were throwing themselves off the cliff edge because of some great bright light in the sky .
The light in someway was mesmerising and they had no fear of what became them ..
Call it a leap of faith if you like ..
I think having faith in such instances holds a lot of weight when it comes down to experiencing the (so called) unknown .
x daz x
I have to tell you. ..the jumping off the cliff analogy isn't helping 🙂
Are these sensations frightening or full of love? If they make me feel uncomfortable, like you, I may go and do something else.
If they are full of Love, why fear it? Who wants to speak to you? Is it your Guides? It might be worth trying to find out. What is stopping you? Is it your education - religious or otherwise? Ask and see what answers you get. It might be worth finding someone who can help you. My own journey has been absolutely wonderful and was well worth following 🙂
I'm just afraid.
And that's not my style. I'm giving gratitude on the go "thank you, thank you for everything, please don't teach me anything today.".
I want to cry while I say this. I know I'm ungrateful. Shame on me for wanting some control over this. I just want to go to my cave.
I hope my spirit guides have a sense of humor and mercy. I am sure it's not what they want to hear. But I just need a day where nothing extraordinary happens. I need to process.
I know the feeling of "don't do that" or "there is danger there" or "go".
This is different. Too much is happening. I am afraid I am a witch. I can't believe I said that. I appreciate your comments. That's why I am here.
How about saying to 'them' - "Please be patient with me! I have had so much to process so far. It is changing me - it is changing how I think - and this upsets me. Let me have time to process what I have covered/learned so far, and then when I am ready I will contact you/ speak to you again."? or words to that effect.
If it/ they are spirit guides, they are endlessly patient. If it/ they don't take 'no' for an answer tell them to go and find someone else to annoy!! 😉
I'm just afraid.
And that's not my style. I'm giving gratitude on the go "thank you, thank you for everything, please don't teach me anything today.".
I want to cry while I say this. I know I'm ungrateful. Shame on me for wanting some control over this. I just want to go to my cave.
I hope my spirit guides have a sense of humor and mercy. I am sure it's not what they want to hear. But I just need a day where nothing extraordinary happens. I need to process.
I know the feeling of "don't do that" or "there is danger there" or "go".
This is different. Too much is happening. I am afraid I am a witch. I can't believe I said that. I appreciate your comments. That's why I am here.
So you are a witch....a wise woman is all a witch means!. You got to play the witch and that is causing a problem
You are frightened of losing control, thats all.
Don't force anything.. You are just getting in the way of it by trying to be grateful or wanting to stop it or take a breather, regulate it in some way so that mind can control it.
You want to be grateful but fear takes over. Allow fear. fear of fear. Go to the heart of that fear. Don't wash over that fear with gratitude.. The two seldom happen together. Either you are in fear or in gratitude...never both together.
Extra ordinary is only because you are resisting. You are resisting it being not about you but about the flow. Fear is a way of control too. Fear is a form of resistence and that is bumpy ride. If you relax, breathe in and allow it exacctly how it wants to happen...it will bcome smooth, fun and graceful .
One thing worth remembering is that even if it may seem as though you are doing this journey , but it is always the other way round. The journey is doing you. Lose control, become vulnerable. it will become joyous and fun....and on top of it all- don't own it, let it own you, instead.
All is good, how can it not be?
blessings
Thank you both for your comments. I am starting to be more accepting of this situation.
I have an ancestor that died in jail waiting for trail as a witch. Laughed it off. Never gave it much thought till this last week or two.
I guess it wouldn't be so bad to be a witch... I just want to make the world a better place because I was here and do no harm.
I have jokingly ended that phase with but don't step on me because I will bite.
I feel like I may have caused something bad to happen with my intense righteous indignation. It causes me fear.
I guess that is my biggest fear that I might cause bad things to happen.
Thank you both for your comments. I am starting to be more accepting of this situation.
I have an ancestor that died in jail waiting for trail as a witch. Laughed it off. Never gave it much thought till this last week or two.
I guess it wouldn't be so bad to be a witch... I just want to make the world a better place because I was here and do no harm.
I have jokingly ended that phase with but don't step on me because I will bite.
I feel like I may have caused something bad to happen with my intense righteous indignation. It causes me fear.
I guess that is my biggest fear that I might cause bad things to happen.
You can't do good or bad...both happen as consciousness moves. In this dual world, good and bad go hand in hand. Shadows of each other, never separate, never away from each other.
Let go of good, bad will free you too. Righteous is holding tight onto good and right. Losing righteousness is becoming vulnerable. Ownership of good is worth losing for with it is liberating beyond belief. Being frightened of being wrong, fallible, weak, judged causes unsaid suffering. Embracing fallibility is humbling and peace giving beyond belief....in that one does not care for personal right or wrong only surrendering to what is happening naturally. Life becomes simple
Its all good
Stay simple, stay cool, have fun!
I guess that is my biggest fear that I might cause bad things to happen.
Oh, dear. Like what? What do you feel others have done against you that warrants a response of harm rather than healing?
I just said... in an effortless unplanned astro projection:
NO...You can't do that anymore...stop it...
The person accidently burned his barn down.
He then came to the person he was harming and asked for a truce.
I have astro projected 2 times in the last week. With no intention. Well with this man...I said "if I was there, if I was there" and I was there. Telling him NO!
Well maybe 3 times in the last week or so. I have never done anything like this before (that I know of)
I want to say thank you for the kindness and non judgemental remarks. I will remember this when I reply to other posts in the future.
I am feeling unafraid (though not exceptionally courageous) and will accept the challenges of tomorrow with more grace 🙂
Is your head fit for bursting with all this information? It does sound like it... Oh and I'm a witch and there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a witch, embrace it. lol
As has already been said, ask your spirit guides to be patient with you, but be aware they wouldn't be putting all this information your way if you couldn't handle it.
Take some time to breathe.
All will be well. x
Gulfcoastms I can understand why you are concerned - but remember intention is everything . I agree with what has been said. Trust your guides, and remember there are some who would envy you such a clear manifestation of spiritual presence. I would give my eye teeth to have an experience even a 10th as dramatic so I could stop doubting what I am doing and silence my logical scientiifc brain. 🙂
I got my day off. I have been private messaging with Tashanie and she has been so kind and helpful. I want to thank her publicly for her extraordinary insight and desire to help.
I asked for more psychic power and have been doing 3rd eye exercises. What did I expect to happen? I certainly got what I asked for. I am grateful for this experience (even though I wasn't a couple of days ago). I have come to a peace and openness about it and embrace the wonder of it all.
I asked for a companion; someone to grow old with. I was not specific. I did not specify...man or woman 🙂 The universe gave me a daughter. My spirit guides are so wonderful. They knew what I needed and they brought someone who needed what I had to offer. I want to thank them publicly for their patience and kindness.
I also want to thank the people on this chatroom for being who they are. Any other chatroom I have been on, has been full of cyber bullying. That is not the case here. Maybe thanks are in order to Paul Crick for his moderation of this site to keep it clean and civil?