I have always struggled do identify with religions because of worship to Gods and to some extent Goddesses. I just find it hard to accept that there is someone sitting up there controlling everything we say and do. I have always been interested in wicca/witchcraft but again there is worship to the god and goddess. I have looked into spiritualism because that seemed close but after spending time at spiritualist churches I felt just the same as in any other church (a fraud). My beliefs are that we are all spirit and all interconnected and while there are different tiers so to speak I just cannot bring myself to worship them, it just feels wrong. After being a member of this forumn for a little while now I am finding more and more that I need to give myself a label of some kind for me as much as anyone else. And I am leaning very much toward Paganism and especially Wicca/witchcraft. I keep being guided towards nature and the moon, I love all aspects of nature (even those which I'm terrified of like spiders). I love all weather and feel deeply emotionally connected to it especially rain and storms.
I feel I need some guidance on how to proceed and please don't direct me to the sticky threads because I have read and re-read the weblinks suggested. Although I haven't read all the books recommended I have read some by suggested authors as well as many others and I am read out. Please could someone recommend something that is a little less Deity related or at least in the worshipping sense. I know a lot of this has been mentioned before I have also spent a lot of time reading past threads and still feel baffled. I know it takes time but I have been trying to find these answers for years now. If you can't reccomend any books please could you suggest some exercises to find the answers elsewhere or maybe recommend another path that fits better.
Thankyou for reading my rather long post and thankyou in advance for your replies.
P.S. Also not strictly connected but what does 'amp' mean I keep seeing it and it's been driving me crazy.
Much Love & Light
Serenity:confused:79
I can't really help as I am one who does worship - and loves to worship - the Divine Mother above all else. But that's just my inclination; it's fine if your path takes you in a different direction. there's no 'having to' at all. However I was caught by one thing you said:
I just find it hard to accept that there is someone sitting up there controlling everything we say and do
and I want to say that I don't believe the deity (call him/her by whatever name you please) actually controls us in any way at all.
BTW if you want a name, how about 'pantheist' which means seeing God in everything?
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Hi Serenity79.
I cannot really say I follow any particular path, or that I can be given a label.....I am neither Christian, Buddhist, Wiccan, Spiritualist Pagan, and cannot really be called a Shaman, A Medicine Woman or Healer, the list is endless isn't it?? I understand how frustrating it can be because I suppose I am in a similar situation. But, having said that.......IMVHO, all are beautiful methods and passageways to connect with your own "Deity" your Higher Self.
Just for the record.....If I should offer a prayer or request to whoever is "upstairs", I refer to "The Great Spirit". I do not/cannot visualise a "Deity", because to me there is no image to visualise.."The Great Spirit",,,,is The All, and the Highest aspiration to which we are all reaching for.
I do tend to take a little bit from each though,,,a pinch of this, a peck of that, and dash of the other , it makes a wonderful appetising plateful and feeds my soul, and I am the baker of my own mix with Great Spirit as Head Chef.
Are people afraid to say the word atheist, there are more and more people deserting the church these days than ever before, me being one of them.
I'm an atheist I don't believe in god.
We have the earth who gives us life and the sun who gives us light and the power to fuel life.
To me the true pagan is the honour of nature and I would agree with you that all is interconnected. The earth is alive, all that we consume is alive and then it returns to the earth to be re-born. We are born and then in death return to the earth and become part of nature, and the circle of life continues.
Don't worry about no deity to worship, don't worry that there's system to follow. But listen to your heart and follow nature.
Myarka.