My grandmother is very ill with a brain tumour and just waiting to be released from this earth. I don't want her to suffer any more - I just want to see her at rest and peace. She is really suffering at the moment and has lost her dignity and her sense of reality comes and goes which is distressing for her. She is nearly 94 years old.
This woman is (as far as I'm concerned) my mother, she raised me and if it wasn't for her strength, I would have ended up in care. She was / is an amazingly strong woman and I know there will be a huge gap in my life forever more when she has gone.
I'm finding life a bit of a struggle at the moment. What with the upheaval of my Nan's impending death, other family issues and people seeming to "pick" on me and my little boy. My son's behaviour is not great around others - I think he is very clingy and yet there is no family to support us and I feel very alone sometimes, as I'm sure he does.
My work life is difficult too and I am taking each day as it comes but know that the company won't last too much longer as the finances are dire.
Combine all this with money being tight and all the other pressures of being a single parent - life is feeling a bit of a struggle at the moment. I broke down in work this morning, partly because of the stress of everything and partly due to the fact that I can't sleep well at the moment.
I would really like some healing and support for me, my grandmother and my son.
Thank you so much. xx
RE: Would really appreciate some healing and prayers.
Dear Jade 321
My heart goes out to you, your grandmother and your little son. I have sent loving light and the magic of life to you all. Remember that you are never alone. There is always support nearby, in the form of guides and spirits, even if you can't see them. Nature is also there to support us. If you are feeling sad, try sitting under a tree and meditating on it. You will receive strength and supportfrom the tree - look for other qualities that it may want to offer you during this difficult time. Finally you also sound incredibly strong yourself, I did feel a strength in your posting, rather than sensing a victim, so know that you have it in you to get through this difficult time. Love and hugs. xxx
RE: Would really appreciate some healing and prayers.
Thank you so much bluemagpie.
I keep telling myself that I am being sent all these things, to make me see how strong I am. But there are days I just want to be "normal" and not have to keep proving to whoever that I can cope and I am strong.
RE: Would really appreciate some healing and prayers.
Dear Jade
I'm thinking of you and your son and grandmother. I'm sure you are being tested - as are many of us in so many ways at this time - and I have a feeling that we are not going to be allowed to choose to stop. Grin and bear it might be an appropriate thought here - I'm convinced that the physical act of putting a smile on our face, whether we want to or not, can make us feel better.
You know you are echoing something I used to say from time to time: 'why can't I just go back to being normal?' but that's not possible. Once you're awake, you can't go back to sleep again.
Prayer is good. We should all pray for each other. All the time. And send blessings as I do to you and your son. And may your grandmother have an easy passing.
With much love
Sunanda xxx
RE: Would really appreciate some healing and prayers.
Sending reiki to you all at this time my thought are with you all.