Hello
Thank you all so much for all your love and healing and support these last few weeks- I am humbled and feel very blessed
The last year has been a real rollercoaster and the last month absolutely beyond anything I have known. I now have flu and it isnt really shifting. I also as some of you know am looking for a place to live still
I have 3 options and I really need some help, some healing directed to helping me make the most positive decision. I am doubting all my instincts after the last time and Im so wrung out Im not getting any clarity
I have what I shall call options 1 , 2 and 3
1 is a sublet- in an area im not too keen on near council estates in a one bed flat the owner says may have a spirit attachment. When I went in I felt an energy- not malevolent but I felt something. It also comes with a cat to look after for a few months:) The girl says she has felt the place was cursed and she would like a reiki master ( me) there to clear the space. Just after I said no I wished I had said yes and now she tells me she is still looking for someone so its a take two here for me if I choose to say yes
2 is a share in north london- with a girl who had a bad experience with her last flatmate and Im terrified I will end up with someone like my current flatmate again. The space is workeable and I would have my own bathroom- albeit in the eaves so head banging is to be expected....Im just scared of another unknown person and what that will bring
3 is a studio in a part of London I dont like too much- not enough greenery for me and it borders nice bits and not so nice bits. Just very urban and hectic. The place is also technically a bedsit so even though each studio has its own bathroom none of us can lock the bathrooms from the outside. Its on the top floor and has lots of light and nice views and I liked it lots- its the area and the bathroom issue that has me spooked about safety and its a years contracts so that has me spooked too
Im sorry if this sounds silly- with all thats happened I cant seem to think straight. One minute I dowse and get one answer, then I tune in and get another, then I get another
Please help me get some clarity I have till Weds evening to choose
Thank you so very much
My feeling would be to go for number three and not to involve yourself in anyone elses issues regarding where you live - the first two just don't sound or feel peaceful solutions.
For the third - you sound more positive about it - and whilst you can't change the area, with the bathroom - although you can't lock it from outside means you can't keep anything of value about, you can put a bolt on the inside of the door to keep it closed whilst in there. A years contract gives you security and buys you time to recover from this year and in the latter half have the time to look thoroughly for a place in an area you prefer.
I hope whatever choice you make, you are happy.
Take care
Celia
I'm with Celia on this-option 3 sounds the best. Also - although there's not much greenery you say there is lots of light & nice views which sounds lovely & must count for a lot.
I wish you peace & happiness whatever you decide to do.
Take care
Yvonne xxx
Purelightreiki
Give your Self credence. You have seen the 3 options. Drop all the comments that you have heard and drop the stories you are spinning around each option(such as troublesome flat mate etc)
That is all going on in your head. Drop into the heart area, sit there for some time, keep bringing attention back to the heart area if it wanders away. Your answers all lie there right within you. Even if you get the right answer from someone else, it is still not right. As it needs to come from within. Then whatever is the correct choice(even if it may seem not the best option for a time) from the point of view of your personal evolution will be made. You would find peace in that choice, even if it seems the most difficult choice for a time.
Dousing spirits, angels etc are all outside of you. Stay deep into your being and get the guidance there. In quietness come what is right for you. Stop worrying that you can make a wrong choice because that is driving your indecision. Know in your heart that only right decisions are ever made.
peace
Ruby
jnani has a point, you know inside what is the right choice for you.
For example, with option 2 you sound reluctant because it's sharing with another unknown person who says they've had a bad experience with a previous flatmate, but you're unsure whether you'd get on. So why not just clarify that for your sake and for hers and phone her up and ask what issues she had with the previous flatmate (i.e. get chatting 😉 ) and see if the issues she had are something that you would struggle with. It may be that you both find a common ground in having bad experiences and find that you get on great with each other and can support each other in getting your faith back in people. It wouldn't hurt to talk, and you cannot judge her based on your own previous experiences. After all, option 2 sounds like you like the living space and own bathroom, if you can get on together, whereas option 3 sounds like you have some fears over the security and shared bathrooms and being tied into a years contract. Option 1 sounds like there are too many things against it for you, from what you say.
Which one do you prefer?