awake dreaming?? strong feelings

Wow, last night was quirky.
Went to bed, had lots of thoughts on mind about my current situation, and was begining to have lots of neg feelings come to forefront of mind, but i could see why i felt these feelings clearly. Anyways.....When i closed my eyes I felt that everything around me was huge including myself, it reminded me of when i used to have a fever and would get this feeling before i started hallucinating. Just space and thoughts and feelings and physically It all felt massive and growing. Anyway went to sleep, awoke to look out of window and thought people were outside camping, i raised my head up to look outside three times thinking the tree and branches and bushes were people with tents until the fourth time when iactually fully awoke and realised It was me half dreaming. Then went back to sleep, dreaming of letting people down without knowing why i didnt do what i should have and didnt make excuses except that i had family probs but that id still face the consequences (i know what this dream was telling me!). Tears were streaming down my face and I half woke again thinking i was crying and it was real, then really woke up and ihad tears coming out of eyes. I felt upset and my body wanted to continue cryinog out but I halted it. went to the loo and when i sat on the toilet I was taken back to a time in my childhood, could smell the smell, felt as though i was back there in spirit but not body. Went back to bed feeling upset. fell asleep. Woke up again to look out of window thinking it was something else outside then then second time i raised head off pillow and realised again that i must have been half dreaming. oh yes, at one point when awake last night I had a strong negative feeling of something bad happening in the world/or my world? was scared and felt helpless.
what do you guys thinks? It almost felt like i was either having a bit of O.B.Experiences or almost sleep walking. ????
When i was fully awake and up this morning, everything that was clear in my mind last night was now muddled.
I realise that some stuff thats coming up are from many years of suppression.
I seem to be able to control my dreams more nowadays. almost consciously? And also, have been able to connect more easily with the visions that pop up b4 i go into deep sleep.

I do feel im actually up doing things or not in my body when im asleep.